Tuesday, October 31, 2006

hey there.....since im free and juz finished talking to BABY.,i've decided to post sumting today..

i went to da hospital early in the morning juz now bcoz i hav breathing difficulties and i almost fainted....it happened when i was talking to BABY on the fone b4 she went to work ard 5.45am...luckily nothing happened to me....i was told to rest more and take my medicine regularly...im sorry BABY for making u worried....im sure u r under alot of stress...but plz understand dat im not making tings difficult for u...i'll get well soon...dun u worry,i wun ever leave ur side....im very confident dat im going to b alright in the end....

about dat little misunderstanding dat we had juz now,it wasnt intentional at all...im juz in a bad mood datz all....all i want is ur attention...but i noe its kinda hard for u to focus on me alone since u gt other stuff to do...its ok dear..im still trying my best to understand da situation u r in...i'll wait patiently for u and i really cant wait for all tiz to end....i love u so much dear and i want to be with u....although there r frequent clashes between us,u should noe dat all those r not true and my love for u will neva fade away.....its juz dat mayb we r missing each other so much which is why we r behaving in dat manner at times....forgive me 4 all the mistakes i've done all tiz wile...u r my everyting darling....always remember dat....muacks.....

anyway HAPPY BELATED 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD RAFIQ!!!...hope u'll get wiser as each year gets by and make ur parents proud of u always!....im sorry dat i totally forgot all abt ur birthday....btw u got a very cute voice for a 7year old...haha
P.S:Rafiq is BABY's younger bro......

3MORE DAYS to my operation....which i hope will go smoothly....pray hard for me BABY...i wanna get well badly....right now,i must b mentally prepared for it....so hav no fear Taufiq and u'll conquer it all!...haha...juz to make myself calm down....

and also 6MORE DAYS TO OUR 4MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!....which is im looking forward to...although we've known each other for only 4mths,i felt lyke i've known u forever...u r my soulmate BABY....im crazy abt u and i need u in my life...tanx for being there for me and for that,i promise u dat im going to b by ur side forever...trust me...da name Taufiq Mraz will only b yours.....we've been thru all da ups and downs and im sure we will able to conquer all dat in the future....i've neva stop loving u since 6th July 2006....

Ismanina Ibrahim,the queen of my heart.....my heart burns for u dear....muacks.....

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Saturday, October 28, 2006

i've not been blogging for quite sum time bcoz i've been very bz lately...i'll post more entries soon..

aNyway as of today,im at home for the whole day.....im so damn bored....im supposed to meet BABY but had to cancel it last minute due to sum personal reasons....im so sorry BABY...i'll meet up wit u soon......wish i could get out of the house or sumting lyke it...im lyke a prisoner in my own home....if my parents doesnt notice it yet,im already all grown up and i do need to get out of the house every now and then...watz da use of staying at home and do nothing but read a BOOK for the entire day??...and to make tings worse,i've hurt da sum1's feelings yet again....and HOME is HELL for me right now...sumbody get me out of here!!!!......HELP!!!

so tiz is for u BABY....hope u get to read it soon.....i juz wanna tell u dat no matter wat happens,i'll always love u and be there for u...im sorry if i mentioned the word "SEPARATE" yet again...i juz stand being left all alone...till now,i've tried my best to understand u and the situation dat u r in but i hope u can understand me too...i dun want us to be quarreling all the time..i juz hate dat...and i dun understand why we hav to fight few days before our anniversary almost every month....mayb bcoz we couldnt agree wit each other on certain issues or mayb im too sensitive to ur words...for my part,im so sorry abt dat....hope it wouldnt happen again although i noe u cant avoid tings lyke tiz....anyway for the past 3 and a half months,its been great being wit u...it's so wonderful...u make me appreciate life....and i realise dat u r da one whom i need the most in tiz world...i love u so much darling...my heart burns for u....and no1 else....i'll cherish everyting about u and i'll swear that dat i'll make tings possible always between us....without u,life is not worth it at all....juz remember tiz sentence....everyting i do,i do it for u....muacks...muacks....u'll always b part of my life...now and forever.....

9more days to our 4month anniversary!!!!!!!!.....

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

i went to the hospital juz now wit mummy since im really sick and i couldnt stand it anymore....i received the result from my previous check up....it wasnt good at all....the doctor confirmed dat there's growth in my stomach and i need to remove it a.s.a.p...i couldnt accept da fact all tiz is happening again...im on medication and supposed to at least well enuf to go abt my daily life...but tings were not lyke wat i expected.....im so upset over all tiz...why must i be the one to suffer all tiz?...life's really unfair....watz da use of having everyting in the world when ur own health is at risk?...i dun want to go thru all this again but it seems dat history is repeating itself....how i wish im well enuf juz lyke everyone else....and to BABY,im sorry that i hav to drag u into tiz....bcoz of me,u r all worried...i didnt mean for tings to b lyke tiz....i really need u by my side at tiz point of time...i understand if u cant spend ur time wit me since u r busy wit school....i miz u so much dear...i'll try to get well soon...for ur sake...i dun want to leave u all alone in this world....i wanna b wit u always..now and forever....come home soon dear...i wanna hear ur voice....it brightens up my day each time i hear ur voice...its juz so special.....anyway im going off now to rest...im really so restless today....hope all tiz will end soon....lots of hugs and kisses frm bunny to barney...muacks...muacks.....

[x] TaufiQ was here at `3:09 PM`__

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

today im sick again...im having a slight fever and headache...i really dun feel good in sch too juz now...sorry for making u worried BABY...i juz need u during time lyke tiz...i hope to get well soon a.s.a.p..i dun lyke being sick lyke tiz...i wanna be well and spend all my time wit u...i miss u so much...da short phonecall dat we had juz wasnt enuf....call me soon k syg...i'll b waiting for dat....and dun 4get to tag tiz blog.....anyway come home soon after u r done at ur aunt's place...im going to rest after tiz....im juz too tired...mayb im nt going sch tomoro...i'll c how's my condition first....hmm...i luv u so much BABY...lots of hugs and kisses frm me to u........u mean the world to me honey...tanx for being so concern abt me...i appreciate dat alot.....muacks muacks.....6 more days to Hari Raya!!!...haha....

You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes,and her eyes everywhere in the world.

here's a video for u dear...hope u lyke it since it's one of ur fav songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znGdrJSup30

[x] TaufiQ was here at `7:12 PM`__

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

im SICK!!!!!!!!!!!

im down wit stomachache da whole day...the toilet's lyke my 2nd home already...spend lots of time there...its been lyke tiz for 2days already and i hope to get well real soon...and bcoz of tiz im not in school again today...took my medicine juz now...hope im ok by tomoro....coz i wanna meet BABY!!!...if im not well,then im not allowed to go out...then i cant spend my time wit BABY...i miz u so much dear...cant wait for u to finish work soon...its 3hrs and 22mins more....i'll call u after u r done wit ur work...

darling,
im sorry abt juz now...didnt mean to scold u..i juz wanna spend time wit u but u r busy chatting away wit ur frens...i juz want ur attention since im sick and there's no1 by my side...i need u dear..i hope u understand why i lost my temper at times...it wasnt intentional....hmm..dun worry too much abt me...im going to b fine...i'll always love u no matter wat...muacks..muacks...tiz is going to b tough challenge for us...we must conquer it together...i'll never b apart frm u...u r my pillar of strength...without u,im nothing....take care my love...dun u ever forget me...i'll b patiently waiting for u here....i luv u till death do us apart....muacks....

6th July 2006:the date i'll never ever forget in my entire life

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

was at home the whole day...didnt do much really...im busy wit my studies as well wit da preparations for Hari Raya..i helped out wit the house cleaning....it was very tiring though...but i still managed to talk wit BABY on da fone...right now im missing u so much dear...hope u r home soon..she's out wit her family...hope u enjoy urself especially if u r going to Geylang since u hav not been there yet....make it a fruitful trip...i'll wait for ur call no matter no late it is....sorry abt da fight juz now...im too selfish..i juz wanted to spend time wit u...but i understand dat u stil hav to go no matter wat..sorry for being selfish...i didnt mean it....and i'll neva leave u...always remember dat leaving u will neva b sumting on my mind....and it shall remain dat way always.....love u lots.....hope to talk 2 u on da phone for as long as possible later...dat is both of us r not sleepy...haha....muacks....

Dardar,
i want u to noe dat u mean the world to me...witout u,life is meaningless...i've neva been tiz happy since da day i known u....although at times we dont click at all,we still make it up to each other at the end of the day....watz LOVE without hardship and sacrifices?...u r the only one in my heart dear...trust me...i'll neva leave u for another gerl coz i know i've found my Ms Right and dat is u,Ismanina Ibrahim...dat name will forever b engrave in my heart.....i'll treasure and cherish all the good moments dat we've shared together..they r very meaningful to me...and also i'll neva forget those rough times too...there r lessons to learn frm those....my love for u gets deeper since 6th July 2006....da date which changed my life forever..tanx for being part of my life dear....im so in love wit u...and its all bcoz u gt such a good heart....i feel special when im with u....i wanna b wit u forever...do forgive me for all the mistakes dat i've done to u...i'll try not to hurt u in anyway although i noe its unavoidable..i hav neva regretted knowing u...u r god's gift darling and i appreciate dat gift very much...i'll b a good buddy,boyfriend,husband to u....datz my promise to u....no one can ever separate us....i love u baby....muacks....muacks....

To the world you may be one person, but to me you are the world

here's a video for u...hope u like it.....:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOd8grq9FFI

[x] TaufiQ was here at `9:14 PM`__

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

i did not attend school today bcoz i woke up late....so i did my revision at home instead..it was a boring day at home...did nothing much really...and i waited for BABY to finish work too...neva did i expect dat u will eventually forget all about me after finishing work....u told me urself dat u wil give me a miss kol after u r done wit ur work since u had to stay back even further for an extra class....and i waited for u patiently....but in the end,still no msg or miss kol from you...i even dozed off waiting for u....u didnt even bother to msg me when u r in the bus...it was after i gave u a miss kol that u msg me back....when i called,u told me in a rush u forgot to call me....and also u didnt want me to get mad since u rushed to get me those plasters which i wanted right after work....i mean what kind of reason is dat?...datz sumting unacceptable...i was the one who told u to get those plasters for me...so even if u still call me at dat point of time,i would not get mad but u did not....i was very hurt with wat u did to me....i didnt expect dat frm u....this is da 2nd time dat u r doing tiz to me...no one wil forget their loved ones even when they r in a rush....to add on your mistakes,u did not even tell me dat u r accompanying ur fren to buy her stuff.....and the reason u gave me?...u said dat since we r quarreling on the fone,u didnt hav the chance to tell me...datz another lame reason.....how would u feel if i did all these to u?...im very upset wit ur attittude for today...its lyke u dun even care abt me anymore...u r only working for a few days and all this r already happening..i juz cant believe it....u really let me down....i waited for u da whole day and tiz is wat i get in the end...its lyke im ur dog..when u need me,u would call me,msg me...but when u dun need me,u will juz ignore me lyke dat...why r u doing this to me dear??...dont u love me anymore??....im trying my best to understand u but plz dont do tiz to me..it's very hurting...watever it is,i've forgiven u....juz dat im still very hurt and too angry to talk to u.........anyway take care and hope ur hand is ok....i still love u BABY....muacks....

[x] TaufiQ was here at `6:40 PM`__

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

just woke up...im having a headache now....going to do some revision later wile waiting for BABY to come home from work...i miss u so much...but u r very different today..i dunno why but i juz felt dat way...mayb u r very busy and had little time for me datz why....but datz ok..i wun make a big fuss over it....i need to understand ur situation now...i'll try to adapt to it k cause u r going for da attachment for the next 2months....i hope during tiz point of time,we'll stick together juz lyke we used to....neva b apart frm each other....and i dun want any changes in u....or history to repeat itself...u should noe wat i mean....anyway come home soon k...and take care when u r going home....i'll b waiting for ur call.......love u and miz u lots......muacks....muacks.........

[x] TaufiQ was here at `7:26 PM`__

Monday, October 09, 2006

i've been busy for the past 3days which is why i didnt hav the time to update my blog.....so here's wat happened....on Saturday my family and i went to Geylang to get our stuff for Hari Raya...thankfully i got all the tings dat i wanted...it was stuffy in there and i was drenched in sweat....we reached home ard 1plus in the morning tanx to the full parking lot where all of us waited lyke nearly an hour juz for a parking space...before going to Geylang,my family actually went over to my grandma's house first since my grandparents said they wanted to come along...anyway...BABY stayed up the whole night just to call me...dat was so swit of u.....thanks sayang..i appreciate dat...

then yesterday.....i went over to my aunty's house at CCK....my grandparents was there too....had a fun time there since i've not seen my 2 little cousins in a while.....after all my extended family members break their fast,all of us went to watch the cd dat my aunt bought the other day....the show wasnt dat good anyway....mummy,my cousin and i went home after the show ended.......BABY also went out with her family.....to buy shoe for Hari Raya..and tiz time it was me who waited to her....till 10plus....i was already sleepy at dat point of time...but luckily she called me at the right time..managed to talk for a wile before i doze off...im sorry sayang for leaving you juz lyke dat..im very tired and didnt get enuf sleep....i miss u lots actually...muacks

and Today,im having a stomachache.....didnt go to school.......there's no one to keep me company right now since BABY has gone for attachment and she's going to b busy for the next couple of months....i noe dat the time dat we spend is going to b lesser this time...but dats ok....i understand the situation dat we r in and we are going to get thru tiz together....no more quarrelling k...anyway...im going to meet her later...at the hospital....i hope i can go out..i'll c how's my condition first...if it gets worse,maybe i wun go out.....but i really want to meet BABY badly...im missing her so much...hav fun working BABY....i love u so much...cant wait to talk to u again.....lots of hugs and kisses from me to you....muacks...muacks...i'll neva forget you no matter where i am......

[x] TaufiQ was here at `10:09 AM`__

Friday, October 06, 2006

im supposed to meet BABY today but i cant cause im gt something to attend to at home...im so sorry sayang....i'll spend time wit u tomoro k...and dat's a promise...i noe u must b upset wit me but i didnt mean any of it at all....anyway HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY SAYANG!!!!!!....im so happy dat we made this tiz far though we've been through lots of ups and doens....i wish for a everlasting relationship wit u dear...till death do us apart.....i love u so much and u r always in my thoughts....and to add on to my happiness...i got ur LETTERS!!!!....ur baby pic is so cute!!!....haha....and those letters r very touching.....and tanx for the lovely stickers too...i lyke it.....dont forget to call me at night k...abt our date today...im so sorry...hope u forgive me.....

baby...im so in love wit you...tanx for being there wit me....i appreciate ur presence....it means alot to me...dont u leave me...i'll promise u dat i'll give u all of my love and make u da happiest girl alive....im glad dat we r together right now....i'll try to change for ur sake and b there for u when u need me....i'll neva stop loving u since 6th July 2006.....da day when i've finally found my true love and dat person is YOU.....i'll neva forget u and the love dat u've been giving me all this wile...it is very special to day...today i dedicate this song to you....for my one and only love,Ismanina Ibrahim...i love u darling....muacks...muacks...missing u badly right now.....

this is for you honey.....muacks.....:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uezK6WYduXE

[x] TaufiQ was here at `6:38 PM`__

Thursday, October 05, 2006

didnt do much today....juz spend my day sleeping after making it up to baby....we had a fight yet again today all bcoz she didnt called me in the morning..i knew dat she needed the rest but she promised to spend her time wit me...i even hurt her feelings in da end...im sorry for being rude and also for my attitude...forgive me sayang....i didnt mean it....i'll always love u no matter wat....right now as im writing tiz blog,im talking on da fone wit you....im so happy....finally we got to spend time again together.....it juz feels good hearing ur voice.....and tanx for complementing on my voice....i didnt know it was nice to hear actually...who noes i gt a hidden talent for singing??...haha...juz kidding.....anyway after blogging,mayb im off to revise some of my work.....i miss u so much sayang...dont forget to tag me k....tanx for spending ur time wit me...i cant hardly wait for tomoro....its going to b a special one...im so happy dat we make it tiz far....till then baby....lots of hugs and kisses from bunny to barney....muacks...muacks......

1more day to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!...yey2!!!!!!

[x] TaufiQ was here at `5:27 PM`__

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

just woke up...im still sleepy now....but i gt to drag myself out of bed since i gt sum work dat needs to b done later...wish i could remain in bed...i dunno why im so tired these days...perhaps bcoz of my school's schedule which i find very hectic...my body juz cant accept it....and im always sick....i must do sumting abt it fast or i'll end up suffering.....anyway im sorry abt my attitude baby...i noe dat u r having dat girls thing now but i've failed to understand ur feelings...u ended up feeling jealous when i told wat happened between me and my girl pals in school...i wun do it again ok baby...i should hav understand u instead of getting angry all the time....i really hope to get rid of dat ugly temper of mine fast....i really3 miss u so much...wish u r here wit me right now...i'll try to make time for our anniversary tiz Friday....i plan to skip school tiz friday but i cant cause there r a couple of major lessons dat i need to attend...sorry dear...but dun worry...i'll do anyting juz for u....i love u so much honey...till death do us apart....Fiq and Nina will always b one...muacks...muacks....

2more days to our 3rd month anniversary

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

had a fight wit BABY today...im so sorry sayang....it wasnt wat i wanted...didnt mean to hurt u in any way...im let my anger get the better of me...u even got scolded by me on the fone in the presence of my frens....i got mad just because u didnt call me in school just now...i didnt understand dat u need the rest after accompanying me on the fone when im on my way to school...dat was so selfish of me...shouldnt hav done dat....forgive me sayang....plz dont b upset...as for the separation,i didnt mean it...i said dat in a moment of anger..u noe dat i'll never leave you...i love u so much....i want us to be together forver....and i dont want anyting lyke tiz to happen again...i cant bear to see us quarrelling few days before our anniversary each month...it broke my heart seeing getting hurt by me..the one whom u love so much....hav faith in me dear..i'll make tings work between us....and i wun ever leave you again...datz my promise to u.....sorry dat i didnt spend much time wit u on the fone juz now..i tink im falling sick soon...but i'll try to stay healthy...juz for u....cause im your HERO!!!..haha..anyway im missing you so badly dear....cant wait to talk to u again....and also,u must get well soon....and plz hav some trust in me....dun ever make me feel insecure....im going to sleep now..dun forget to msg me ok....love u so much baby....muacks...muacks....i'll always be there for you...sorry about my attitude juz now...

3more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!

[x] TaufiQ was here at `5:26 PM`__

Monday, October 02, 2006

just came back frm sch...it was a tiring day for me....to make tings worst,im feeling so restless and having a headache now....going to catch a nap later....and mayb study for a wile later....anyway...im sorry that i cancel our date yet again baby....im just too tired to go out with you....hope u understand my situation...its not dat i didnt want to go out wit you...it wasnt even intentional at all...i'll make it up to u someday....plz dont b upset over tiz...i want u to smile always...im glad to hear dat u r very happy after seeing my blog....tiz is something from me to you....i love u so much sayang...hope u call me soon...im missing you so badly....once again,im sorry about today...i knew dat u wanted to meet me so badly...sorry k....take care...and hav a safe journey home.....muacks...muacks.....

4more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!

[x] TaufiQ was here at `5:38 PM`__

Sunday, October 01, 2006

hey there....here's my first blog entry so here its goes.....didnt really do much today....i was revising my work da whole day....its pretty boring since mummy didnt let me use da pc or the phone....dat really suckz....to make things worst,i miss BABY so much...wish i could talk to u soon dear....i miss ur voice too...anyway hope u r enjoying urself out there with ur family....and come home soon.....im really looking forward to our date tomoro....so sweet of u to wait for me to end sch...i love u so much....and furthermore,im so happy dat we didnt quarrel today.....hmm...i didnt hav much to add here really...and i dun tink i can blog dat often since im going to b very bz....i hope u understand me sayang why we r not going to spend so much time together lyke we used to....plz b patient with me.....ok ppl.got to go now....i'll update more abt myself soon......take care and hav a nice day......call me soon sayang.....im so in love wit u....muacks...muacks...muacks......

5more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!!....

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