i went to the hospital juz now wit mummy since im really sick and i couldnt stand it anymore....i received the result from my previous check up....it wasnt good at all....the doctor confirmed dat there's growth in my stomach and i need to remove it a.s.a.p...i couldnt accept da fact all tiz is happening again...im on medication and supposed to at least well enuf to go abt my daily life...but tings were not lyke wat i expected.....im so upset over all tiz...why must i be the one to suffer all tiz?...life's really unfair....watz da use of having everyting in the world when ur own health is at risk?...i dun want to go thru all this again but it seems dat history is repeating itself....how i wish im well enuf juz lyke everyone else....and to BABY,im sorry that i hav to drag u into tiz....bcoz of me,u r all worried...i didnt mean for tings to b lyke tiz....i really need u by my side at tiz point of time...i understand if u cant spend ur time wit me since u r busy wit school....i miz u so much dear...i'll try to get well soon...for ur sake...i dun want to leave u all alone in this world....i wanna b wit u always..now and forever....come home soon dear...i wanna hear ur voice....it brightens up my day each time i hear ur voice...its juz so special.....anyway im going off now to rest...im really so restless today....hope all tiz will end soon....lots of hugs and kisses frm bunny to barney...muacks...muacks.....