today is my 20th birthday!!!!...yey2!!!!!

finally i've turned 20 for good...haha...my wish is to stay healthy always and an everlasting relationship with BABY!!!!

as expected,BABY was the first one to wish yesterday...but i was really bad..half throughout our conversation,i fell asleep and left her alone..it was only at ard 1plus am dat i woke up and called her back..im sorry darling...my eyes always gave away at the wrong time...i noe u r very upset wit my attitude nowadays...especially tiz morning...ard the time when u r going to work...once again,im sorry abt dat...i feel very bad abt wats happening between us...

anyway right now,i dun feel lyke celebrating my birthday at all since BABY's not with me..she's working and i noe dat she's very upset although she 's trying her best to hide all her sadness juz to make me feel good...u can fool others but not me dear...i noe u well enuf...how i wish i could do sumting to make u feel happy...i dun hav the mood to entertain my cousins and the rest of my extended family who are at my house now....i juz cut the cake,eat and chat for a wile before going to my room...i dunno why but i dun feel so good suddenly and i used dat as an excuse...mayb im missing my BABY so much.....

i want to noe dat im very sorry abt my attitude and antics all tiz wile....i dunno why i keep hurting u and causing u to b upset most of the time....but i really3 love u so much dear....i wouldnt want to lose u in any way...i'll call u later...cant wait to chat with you...missing u lots honey...muacks....

and before i forget,my son(dat one i had wit my ex-gf),Rey Ezekiel Arffan Mraz, called to wish me juz now...abt 1hr ago..i was so happy to hear his voice..he look so much lyke me thru da photos dat his mum send me da other time...frm wat i heard,he's growing up fast..he's already 2years old tiz year and is currently living wit my ex-gf and her fiance' in Spain...they r getting married next yr and Rey also has 2 half-bros whose name are Pablo Nicolas Frederic Gonzalez who's 1 tiz yr and Juan Valentin Benjamin Gonzalez who is 2mths old...i wish him all the best and hope he's happy wit his family there...daddy loves you rey....u r simply adorable...muacks...