no one is at home right now except for me and my cousin....gosh,im so bored...i cant find anything to do except eating,sleeping,watching tv,computer etc..so i decided to blog today...usually im lazy to do so...i didnt want to follow my mum to my aunty's house cause its even more boring there...i hav to entertain my little cousins and there's nothing much i can do...besides,my mum's there cause she's helping my aunt and grandma to prepare for tomoro's Hari Raya Haji....anyway im damn hungry right now...mayb i'll whip sumthing up later after blogging...
moments ago,i was on the fone wit BABY...i miss her so much...that short conversation wasnt enuf..wish i could to her longer but she needs to do some household chores first...especially for tomoro...i wanna spend the whole night wit u honey....u r mine alone...i hope there will be no misunderstanding between us for today...up till now,we r doing good...love u dearly baby...muacks...i cant wait for u to read my blog later....give me lots of tags k....
i hate tomoro...cause its Hari Raya Haji and i've to go to my grandparents place....its going to be so boring and i've to wear those stuffy clothes....why cant i juz wear those casual clothes??..guys will usually do dat unlike for girls who will be wearing those traditional clothings on festives like tiz....watever...I JUST HATE THIS!!!!
anyway tomoro is also the New Year's Eve and im going out wit BABY at night...im sure i will enjoy myself tomoro night...i cant sleep thinking abt tiz...haha...i noe its nonsense but i noe its going to a special night..i wanna do that "thing" wit you...haha...u should noe wat it is...
1 more week to our 6mths anniversary honey!!....i got a surprise for u....hope u will like it....
i noe its common and simple...but i find short and sweet....who noes mayb my dream of having lots of kids will come true?..haha...its up to BABY and me to make the dream possible 11more days to our 6mths anniversary honey!...im going to make it xtra special... i have to wait 5more days before i can say goodbye to 2006.....im going to celebrate that special day with my loved one.... and good luck with ur losing weight programme dear...i'll be very happy and proud of u if u lose some weight..but even if u dun,i'll still love u so dun worry abt it k...
this boy on the left is my ex's son whose name is Syed Taufiq Salihin Alkaff..he's only a year old tiz yr...isnt he cute??...my best pal,Fhaz, who is a good friend of my ex bumped into her,her son and husband at town the other day...Fhaz passed me this picture since he thought he was adorable and he was right indeed...he takes after my ex...
may you grow up to be somebody useful Taufiq.....
anyway had a great time with BABY today...we were so romantic...till now im missing her still...i just cant get enuf of her..i love u so much dear..i'll try not to hurt u anymore....it hurts me even more whenever u r hurt by me and ended up crying so badly that at times,i felt lyke crying too..i can be emotional at times too although im a guy..anyway it's been a great year,being wit u and all dat..wont forget all the memories dat we've shared together...i hope we will stay loving always...cant imagine life without u dear...u will always be part of me...something like a twin...i can say dat we r alike in some ways...watever it is,im glad that u r my girlfriend....i wil neva cheat on you dear...u will forever be in my heart...muacks..lots of hugs and kisses from me to you honey....
these are the another 2 names dat both BABY and i hav came up with for our future children when we r on the fone last nite
-Shafiq Dominic Travis Mraz(22)
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wife:Nurul Farhanah Bte Abdul Rashid(26)
son:Syed Rihan Sufihan Khan(4)
daughter:Risha Suliana Putri Khan(2)
son:Riyan Syafiq Adly Khan(1mth old)
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daughter:Sheila Farzanah Khan(2mths old)
im supposed to be in school today but i didnt go because im dont feel too good...and im taking way too long to recover...i dont know why but i dun feel good abt everything today...i can kind of sense that something bad is going to happen soon...but i hope that it wun and will neva happen..i didnt even have the mood to eat which is strange cause i usually hav the mood for food....put all that aside for now,im missing you honey...i noe u cant kol now cause ur mum's already at home but dat's ok...i'll wait for the usual timing...muacks....
i have no idea on what else to blog...my life must be very boring compared to others...i wish i can get out and enjoy life but then again i hav a very tight schedule and i've committments in life so yea..i cant be possibly enjoying my life all the time...i need to discipline myself too..and that get that temper of mine under control.....
anyway Christmas is coming and my family is doing a last min shopping...im wondering till now what will i get on that day...but the best part is all of us including my extended family r going to be there on both Xmas eve and on Xmas itself...im going to have lots of fun...since BABY is going to be there too...1 more week to Xmas ppl!....and there's the New Year's countdown...im going to out all night with baby...im getting excited each time i think abt tiz...im counting down the days till these two very special days arrive....i have lots of special memories in 2006 and there r lots of tears too..i wish that 2007 will be a better year for me...and if everything goes well,im getting engaged to BABY!....i will make dat come true dear..hearts u....
i guess datz it for now...im lazy to update the blog these days but i'll try to kick dat bad habit of mine...anyway start working hard Taufiq cause vacation's over and get ur sorry ass to school regularly!...haha...a little reminder for myself...
and to honey...i love u so much...muacks..muacks...my love for u is getting deeper each day....
today im very bad..because of me,BABY is kind of upset with me..i hang up the fone on her,scolded her and said some really nasty words..im sorry dear..i dont know why suddenly i find everybody irritating today...whatever it is,BABY and i are ok right now...love u honey...muacks...
dear,i would like to thank you for buying me that thing..but im feeling very guilty too...u didnt tell me that u didnt hav any money left after buying that thing and right now,u r left with so little cash..how are you going to cope with that amt of money?..im so sorry..because of me,u got no money now..and to make things worse,ur mum and siblings r still not back yet..i shouldnt have asked to you to buy that thing for me...it was so selfish of me...if you had told me earlier,i wouldnt hav allowed you to buy it...i wanted to pay you back but u refused to accept it...the thing is i can only pay u back once i got a job..im short of cash myself now...and i cant keep asking my mum for money..i have to figure out a way somehow...i hate living a life without having sufficient money all the time...
but dont you worry...i'll still get you the keychain that u wanted for your hp...if u r willing to sacrifice to get me something instead of buying clothes for yourself,why cant i do the same too?..although i've less than $20 right now,i'll still spend it on you...to prove to u that im not stingy with my money...i'll give you some money to get the things that u wanted all this while once i get my 1st pay...that is if i got a job....i will not give up and find a job soon...that is my promise to you
anyway im sorry for putting down the fone dat fast just now...mummy wants to use the fone too..hope u understand...i will call you if i can use the fone again...i miss you dear...i hope i will not fall asleep early today....muacks muacks....
im still in love with you....only you,Ismanina Ibrahim...muacks...
im just sick and tired of sitting at home all the time....because im sick,im not allowed to go out unless i've recovered..
at least something brightens up my day today...finally there's network coverage in my house...im damn happy...coz i can talk to BABY as usual...im missing her so badly right now....
but she's abit different today...i can sense that she's having another person in her life besides me...i understand that she cant use the phone the whole day cause she didnt want either her aunty or grandma to know that she's on vacation...if she uses the phone to call me,they cant get thru and frm there,they will noe that BABY's actually at home and will ask her to come over or sleep at their house which is sumting she doesnt want since we wont get to spend the time together and there will be no privacy...she doesnt hav a call waiting for her home fone and ppl can easily noe that u r using the fone if they cant get thru
anyway BABY's sort of ignoring me...i asked to get the prepaid sim card for me but in the end i told her not to get it for me instead i told her to get me a handphone strap...her place is raining quite heavily and she's afraid to use the phone so our conversation were not very long...later she told me that the handphone strap that was sold near her house was not to her fancy and she would to go to Jurong Point tomoro to look for it...she told me that when i called her again..then when i said i wanted to put down the fone,she was so eager to do so...usually she's not like that..she would plead with me to accompany her on her way home..this is so unlike her..i just dont know where i've gone wrong...
why are you doing this to me dear?...if u hav somebody else in mind,please tell me...i wont be angry about it...im not being emotional or paranoid here...it's just that ur actions r telling me that u r no longer interested in me...that's ok...i can accept it...maybe there's someone else who can give lots of happiness more than i do....
dont bother to explain yourself to me later..im no longer interested to hear any of it...whatever it is,im still very much in love with you....and i hope u'll be mine forever....take care dear..hav a safe journey home...muacks...
nothing much happened today.... i cant talk to BABY at night and even during the day for now cause there's no network coverage in my house...that suckz...it's only when im outside the house that i can use the hp...thought of changing frm singtel to starhub...not only there's not network for the singtel prepaid,the singtel lines that both my parents r using r not working too...i wonder what's wrong....damn it... im going to miss you again dear...i wanted to talk to you so badly...but all this is preventing us frm doing so...i noe u r upset and so am i...wish this didnt have to happen... btw im still sick and BABY said that my voice is kind of weird...haha...i hope that i'll recover soon..the illness is driving me crazy...i cant even sleep properly at night... i guess dat's it for today...i dunno wat else to update cause my head's really spinning right now...
finally today is the last day of school/work for BABY...she'll be on vacation starting from next week....yey2!!!....cant wait to spend dat time with her coz im still on vacation too...im planning to hav a sleepover at her house...dunno whether it's a good idea or not but i' guess i hav to give it a try...also i wanna go sightseeing ard singapore,go to places that both of us hav not been yet...or perhaps we could go to the neighbouring country just for the day...BABY told me that she wanted to go to a resort as a holiday retreat but i doubt either of her parents will agree to it...futhermore her mum,siblings are still in malaysia and only her dad is here...but i will still consider that.... i will make full use of next week....i'll spend every single time with you before i have to get back to school...and by then,i will be very busy...so if i dun really hav lots of time to spend with you,i would like to apologise beforehand...but dun worry,whatever it is,u will always be on the top on my list of important people and i'll neva forget you.... btw i cant wait to introduce you to my family and of course my extended family who are coming to Spore for this Xmas...im sure that they will like you coz they are all very nice people...especially my grandparents...so dun be afraid of meeting them k...i'll intro them to you on our reunion dinner on Xmas eve and also u will join in the celebrations on Xmas day itself..im confident enuf dat u will enjoy urself while being with my family... im missing you honey....i noe u must be sleeping right now cause u r tired and also u wanna restore dat energy of yours so that u can talk to me longer tonight...i love u so much dear...thanks for calling me just now..it was so sweet of you.... i wanna be with you on New Year's Eve.....lets do the countdown together...and i'll kiss you when the fireworks goes off....that will be the kiss of your life...haha...
Rey with the eggs
Rey at his favourite place,the fridge
Rey Mraz...the poster boy!!
Prince Rey...at his birthday bash
bad hair day
Rey with mummy
i will change myself for you dear...i dun want you to suffer when you r with me...u have shed too many tears for me and i wouldnt any more of it...seeing/hearing you cry really breaks my heart..i will got myself to blame if i ever lose you to another guy...im really3 sorry dear...watever it is,im glad dat we r ok now...im missing you though...cant wait to talk to you again...muacks..muacks...love you so much....
nothing much happened today...but i really had a bad fight with BABY yet again...and i hav to admit dat it is my fault this time...i didnt want her to go to work cause i wanted her to keep me company but i know dat she cant do dat...i understand dat she got rules to follow but i still threw tantrums at her and even cause her to be late for work...im so sorry dear...i didnt mean anyting like dat to happen...just dat i miss you so much..im really too much this time...i promise u dat it wun happen again...i even threaten to leave u alone here..i must change my attitude too...its getting worse...it's just a day after our anniversary and this is happening..i just cant believe it...i'll try not to repeat my mistakes again...forgive me dear....
the things that im would like to apologise for
i hope i will not make my girl sad or angry today coz she's down with the girl's thingy...i only got to know abt it when she called me early in the morning...and im sure she will be not comfortable as she got to work in the afternoon...hope u r alright dear...i miss you...muacks... about what happened yesterday,im so sorry abt it...i didnt expect u to break down lyke dat...usually u weren't dat emotional but i hav to admit that yesterday was totally not i've expected...i should hav known earlier dat its PMS...sorry for not understanding you...i just didnt want you to go,datz all....but i know dat is kinda selfish of me...i hope you know why im doing all this...i didnt expect us to quarrel again yesterday...u should know dat i cant stand all this emotions in our relationship...maybe a little will do but definitely not alot of it...i too must make some changes in my attitude...im not perfect either...both of us must help each other in this and make our relationship an everlasting one...remember all of the promises dat we've made to each other?...i want all of it to come true...i will make u happy no matter what.... 1more day to our anniversary darling!!......i just cant believe dat it's this fast...this 5months with you is filled with joy,laughter and happiness...i've neva been happy although i've been in alot of relationships...it's like i've known you forever...and i know that u r the one for me...the one who's going to be with me for the rest of my life...love you lots honey...muacks...muacks...i wanna talk to you again dear so come home soon later....
next month,im going to be an uncle for the third time....my sis-in-law is giving birth soon...to a baby boy....it's boys fever in the Mraz family... my elder bro who is only 22yrs old got married to his girlfriend of 4years in 2003 after their eldest son turned 1...his birth was not a planned one...up to now they have 2 sons together whose names are Sly Jeriel Razif Mraz and Chad Michael Syarriz Mraz....Sly is currently 3years old and Chad is only 1years old....my brother wanted a daughter this time..but got a boy instead...he was not disappointed though...he even told me that his wife and him might try again for another baby....that shocked me as he told me earlier that he only wanted 2 children max...and each time his wife is pregnant,he would hav to go thru 9mths of HELL....haha....i pity him at times...but i noe dat he works hard for his family....unlike other ppl who live off their wives or force them to work...at least he is independent enuf to support his family....im proud of him.... anyway the soon-to-be born child will be name Krish Sebastian Aqim Mraz...it was given by me and BABY...my bro thought it was a nice name too...and decided to name his child that...both Sly and Chad cant wait for their new baby brother's arrival...even the room is decorated in baby blue...and everything from clothes to toys r already in place....i hope he would sumting like his elder brothers...my bro is going to withness his birth and record it in his video cam...he did dat for his 2 elder sons' birth too... sometimes when i look at my nephews,my thoughts went to my son who is living in Spain right now..i miss him badly...wish that he's right here living with me...i regretted not taking him in my custody...but i know he would eventually lead a better life with his mum...i just hope that when he's older,he'll acknowledge me as his father...datz all that i wish for....hope u noe dat im missing u Rey...i will call you when i got time to spare... and to BABY....may we have an everlasting relationship together...im sorry for all my mistakes that i've committed all this while...i want you to know that i will love you and life is impossible without you....i need u by my side always....someday we will build our small happy family together just like my brother...im missing u right now honey....come home soon....dun forget to eat during your break time...and take care of yourself....muacks...muacks.... your love will never be forgotten....it will always remain in my heart.... 2more days to our 5mth anniversary baby!!!!!!!!.......
its been a while since i've last post an entry here..i've been busy with my schoolwork and lots of other stuff too...and also there r some personal reason as to why i've not been blogging...
anyway right now im talking on the fone with BABY right now...so pardon me if im writing crap later...i got nothing to do these days since im on school vacation right now...i've tried looking for a job but lately i've been told that there r no vacancies...there's a job waiting for me and that is working in my dad's company but i didnt like dat job and working with my dad can be very boring..i hope to get a job soon...BABY's helping me by asking her friends around...thanks alot dear..muacks...
also,i spend all my time today on the fone wit my BABY...had a great time talking to her..i just cant gt enuf of u honey...i wanna more of u....haha....especially tonight....u should noe wat izzit..
im having another headache right now and its hurting badly....i dont know what's happening to me...i should book an appointment with the doctor soon...this headache has been going for days now and the medication dat im taking right now is not dat effective...
honey.....3more days to our 5mth anniversary!!....i cant believe dat we make it this far...i hope that there will be fewer misunderstandings in the future...i dun want to lose you bcoz of this...i can sense dat we will always be together forever...i love u dear....muacks....
Taufiq Cleophas Matthew Mraz
20yrs old
National University of Singapore
9th November 1986
attached to Ismanina Ibrahim since 6th July 2006
littlebeachboy_fiq@hotmail.com
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