eveRytHing i do....i'LL do It fOR u....

2007-01-15T17:07:00.000+08:00

im damn tired today....and sch's giving a major headache....my workload is getting more and more each day and i find it extremely hard to meet the deadlines...in the end,im the one who's feeling stress...on top of dat,i still hav to juggle my studies and my love life which im thankful that it's going ok right now...

finally,i found a job but damn,the working hours are long....since im currently schooling right now,i will start work on at 6 and will end my shift ard 1130pm...i guess i will be in for a hard time...im sick and tired of not having enuf cash all the time and i cant always depend on my parents for money...its time for me to earn my own money....so i can buy whatever i've been wanting to buy all this while....BABY is not aware of this yet..but im sure she will not be happy since im going to be home late and we cant talk as usual at 10...i might be so sleepy when i reach home that mayb we dun even hav the time to talk even though u r willing to wait for me...the only time we will get to talk is before both of us r off to sch in the morning...also,we r going to be spending lesser time with each other since both of us r busy with our own lives...whatever it is,im still going to make time for the both of us to be together....

about our love life,things r turning bad each day but im grateful that we r ok today...i dunno why we r fighting all the time and i cant accept whatever that u hav to say...im so sorry dear...sometimes i find it hard to communicate with u and i still cant find the reason to dat till now..u should know that i didnt mean abt the breakup...i cant live without u even for a day...i need u in my life always...i want u to noe dat i still love u baby...so much....i've never love a girl this much till the day u came into my life...i miss u so much right now...so far for today,we've only exchanged a few msgs...i just hav to adapt to it....there r many challenges in a love life but if we truly love each other,both of us will overcome it...i hope both of us can do this...muacks....

cant wait to call you baby....i've been waiting for you the whole day and im dying to hear ur voice...

you are a blessing from Heaven baby....thanks for being part of my Life...muacks....

2007-01-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

its damn bored staying at home the whole day...i did not go to sch coz i woke up late when actually earlier on,BABY already called lots of times to wake me up....anyway thanks dear for waking me up...i miss u...muacks...

in the afternoon,i followed my mum to meet my grandma at Clementi...i shouldnt hav gone there...in the end,i got a headache for nothing....i didnt want to go in the first place coz its raining heavily and sleeping would be a much better choice but since mummy got no company,i juz decided to tag along....what a waste of time...there r lots of ppl especially students...and its kinda hard to walk ard when its raining...my jeans ended up getting soaked...a mental note to myself...never go out when its raining heavily....

things r not right at times for BABY and me...i just dont know what's so wrong with the both of us..its like we r upset with each other or sumting...and we couldnt accept each other's words...mayb that's because we r missing each other so much like what BABY mentioned just now over the phone...we r currently very busy with our school life that we r spending lesser time wit each other.....perhaps we should to be more tolerant of each other...BABY's better at this since im always losing my temper most of the time...sorry about k....i just cant control it at times...but whatever it is ,i will always love u...muacks...

BABY and i r meeting tomoro...we have a date at the library...i've decided to offer her my help for any of her upcoming test/exam since she said she cant study/revise alone...i'll be more than glad to help...i wanna her to do well for her graduating year....i want u to be proud of yourself for all the hard work and effort dat u r going to put in...dont u ever look down on urself..i will always b there to give u my support and encouragement....remember that...love u and miss u lots honey...muacks

tonight will be a very special night for the both of us...u should know what i mean honey..:)

Little Boy and Little Girl.Mr Nugget and Miss Nugget.

2007-01-10T12:20:00.000+08:00

im in school right now...since i got nothing much to do,might as well i update my blog to pass time...i've been very busy ever since im back in school...luckily for me,i didnt miss out much cause i've been doing assignments at home if i decided to skip school or watsover and i'll juz send everything to my lecturers thru mail...but right now,i cant afford to skip school anymore cause i really got lots of things to do....and due to tiz,im spending lesser time time with BABY...i hope u understand dear why im either tired or sleepy most of the time...we must try to understand each other since both of us r busy with our schools....btw im missing u right now..i wanted to msg u but decided not to disturb u...i didnt want u to get distracted...and forget to eat k...datz very important...muacks....

anyway my bro told me dat Krish is doing fine right now which a sign of relief for everyone...he is the center of attention in the Mraz family not forgetting his 2 older brothers...he is so adorable juz like his father...with the boys/guys dominating the Mraz family,a baby girl will even be more special...i hope my nephews will grow up to be useful someday...speaking of my nephews,i miss my adorable son so much...Rey will be 3 tiz coming June...he's so big already...i just cant believe it..my ex told me that he's going to pre-school soon....wat a cutie pie...cant wait to meet him again...i wanna him to noe that his daddy here loves him so much and will never ever forget him...all i want him is to acknowledge me as his dad when he's older as he's much more closer to his step-dad since he's living with him and my ex....the thought of him calling another man 'daddy' is unbearable...i get jealous most of the time but its no point since i was the one who refuse to take care of him...watever it is,daddy miss u Rey....hope u r missing me too...

as for BABY and me,we r doing fine each day....there r lesser misunderstanding and all dat...im glad for dat....being with her for 6mths is wonderful...i love her to bits and pieces....u r my life dear...muacks...tanx for being my everything...without u,i would be totally lost in life...i can bear to lose everyting in this world but not u....once u r gone,my life is meaningless....dont u ever doubt my love for u....i will always love u and there's no more room for any1 else in my heart...im all yours....since 6th July 2006...the day dat that i will never forget....love u and miss u so much baby...muacks muacks....

Fiq and Nina.Dardar and Baby.Coke and Mango.Mystery Boy anf Mystery Girl.Boboy and Gegerl.Mr and Mrs Mraz.

9th November 1986

22nd May 1989

6th July 2006

T.A.U.F.I.Q L.O.V.E.S Y.O.U.

2007-01-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

today everything was ok as usual....

its our 6months anniversary...didnt hav much to celebrate though...im sorry about what happened earlier on...it wasnt something which i wanted at all....

i miss you lots honey....hope u will call me after this...muacks...

i didnt hav the mood to blog actually...i just dont feel well after the trip to Sentosa with my family and relatives just now....im going to get a cold soon...shouldnt hav went in the 1st place...

i think datz about it...my mind is kinda blank right now..mayb i'll blog more tomoro..till then...peace...

2007-01-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

im so bored today....im not interested in school which is why i've not been to sch these few days..and there r problems at home too...just feel lyke running away from home but i noe its no use..i will be at a disadvantage in the end...so better not be foolish to do such a thing...also im sick and tired of having shortage of money all the time...i had no luck in finding a job or watsoever...wat a life im having right now...

the first day of the New Year wasnt good either...i juz dun understand what's happening to me and my life...is it me or the ppl surrounding me?...i tried to be nice but i still got treated badly in the end...when im bad,ppl will critcise me for doing this and that...i dont noe what is it that those people want from me...i noe i may be bad at times but doesnt mean i cant change...im trying my best to change especially on my attitude but it will take me awhile to do it...plz understand...im sick and yet im getting this treatment..im not asking ppl to hav pity on me or watsoever,i dun need dat..i just want them to understand what im going thru just like wat i did when they r going thru a rough time...i noe i can depend on ppl too much...i can be independent in certain areas...but when it involves feelings and all that,i need BABY by my need...she's the one who can console me and make me forget all abt my problems...thanks dear...i dont know wat to do without u...although at times i've hurt u,u r very patient wit me and even try to make me happy....not make girls can do it...im very proud to hav u as my girl....

3 more days to our 6mth anniversary dear...although i've mention the word separation lots of times,i didnt mean it at all..i only said dat in a moment of anger...truth is im still very much in love with you...i cant live without u dear...i need u in my life...dun u ever leave me...i will neva find another girl like u...u may not be rich,pretty or even smart,but ur heart is something which many will not hav...the love u hav given me,i felt so blessed being wit you...day and night,i pray dat we will always be together...i hope my presence in ur life has the greatest impact among all...i love u so much honey...muacks muacks...im missing u lots here....im so happy that u r part of my life..muacks....

One man all by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world.

2007-01-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

my 3 nephews when they were babies....they are so adorable....i love them so much...they r just like my own.....

the eldest boy,Sly Jeriel Razif Mraz

8th July 2003

the middle boy,Chad Michael Syarriz Mraz

2nd October 2005

the youngest boy,Krish Sebastian Aqim Mraz

1st January 2007

2007-01-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

here are 3 photos of my newborn nephew,Krish Sebastian Aqim Mraz...the time of his arrival was 1.27pm...he wasnt due till next week actually...looks like he cant wait any longer and i tink dat is a perfect timing...anyway i arrived there only 30mins after his birth and i couldnt take lots of pictures like what BABY wanted me to do since Krish was having difficulties in breathing and was taken away by the doctor to be place under obversation...but i hope u r happy wit these pictures...im proud being uncle for the thrid time...haha...the whole Mraz family were delighted with his birth especially his parents and older siblings....

2006-12-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

no one is at home right now except for me and my cousin....gosh,im so bored...i cant find anything to do except eating,sleeping,watching tv,computer etc..so i decided to blog today...usually im lazy to do so...i didnt want to follow my mum to my aunty's house cause its even more boring there...i hav to entertain my little cousins and there's nothing much i can do...besides,my mum's there cause she's helping my aunt and grandma to prepare for tomoro's Hari Raya Haji....anyway im damn hungry right now...mayb i'll whip sumthing up later after blogging...

moments ago,i was on the fone wit BABY...i miss her so much...that short conversation wasnt enuf..wish i could to her longer but she needs to do some household chores first...especially for tomoro...i wanna spend the whole night wit u honey....u r mine alone...i hope there will be no misunderstanding between us for today...up till now,we r doing good...love u dearly baby...muacks...i cant wait for u to read my blog later....give me lots of tags k....

i hate tomoro...cause its Hari Raya Haji and i've to go to my grandparents place....its going to be so boring and i've to wear those stuffy clothes....why cant i juz wear those casual clothes??..guys will usually do dat unlike for girls who will be wearing those traditional clothings on festives like tiz....watever...I JUST HATE THIS!!!!

anyway tomoro is also the New Year's Eve and im going out wit BABY at night...im sure i will enjoy myself tomoro night...i cant sleep thinking abt tiz...haha...i noe its nonsense but i noe its going to a special night..i wanna do that "thing" wit you...haha...u should noe wat it is...

1 more week to our 6mths anniversary honey!!....i got a surprise for u....hope u will like it....

2006-12-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

It's the rainy season now and im enjoying every minute of it...since there's nothing much for me to do,SLEEPING is the best option left....and i hate going to school...school is boring...wish i can quit or something..i would still be alive even though i dun graduate from dat sch wit a degree...im ready for the working world,no matter what my parents are going to say to me...i had enough of listening to them for the past 20years....let me grow up ppl!...im aint a baby anymore...

anyway abt today,i helped my mum to cook my fav food which is mee soto...it was so delicious that i had a second serving...i didnt know cooking can be so fun...girls out there,do not underestimate the male gender...we can be as good as u guys...haha...my ambition is to be a chef but since i hav to take over my dad's business after graduating,i guess i hav to put dat dream of mine on hold...back to the delicious meal,how i wish BABY's there to sample my cooking...im sure she would like it too..and now this could only mean one thing,someday i can whip up a nice and delicious meal for u dear....especially when we r married...haha...

im missing u lots BABY....cant wait to talk to you later....im not going to sleep early like i always do everyday...i wanna talk to you till morning...abt the misunderstanding earlier on,im very sorry...i was over-reacting on my part...i noe u werent insulting me...u love me too much to insult me...call me soon k...and abt the MSN girls i've been chatting wit,im sorry that i caused to be jealous all the times although u noe that im faithful to u all the wile....dont u worry abt anything ok...they r harmless....love u so much honey...muacks...muacks...remember to stay cute for me...haha...

here's a picture of BABY...lots of ppl especially in MSN hav been wanting to see it so this is your chance to do so...i noe some ppl might tink that she's overweight,not pretty and all but i dun give a damn abt dat...what im concern abt is that she's got a heart of gold which is why i love her so much and im very proud to say dat she's my girl...to me,inner beauty is more important...what's the use of being good-looking when ur attitude sucks....so ppl,give some thought abt it...dont judge a book by its cover..

2006-12-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

this boy on the left is my ex's son whose name is Syed Taufiq Salihin Alkaff..he's only a year old tiz yr...isnt he cute??...my best pal,Fhaz, who is a good friend of my ex bumped into her,her son and husband at town the other day...Fhaz passed me this picture since he thought he was adorable and he was right indeed...he takes after my ex...

may you grow up to be somebody useful Taufiq.....

anyway had a great time with BABY today...we were so romantic...till now im missing her still...i just cant get enuf of her..i love u so much dear..i'll try not to hurt u anymore....it hurts me even more whenever u r hurt by me and ended up crying so badly that at times,i felt lyke crying too..i can be emotional at times too although im a guy..anyway it's been a great year,being wit u and all dat..wont forget all the memories dat we've shared together...i hope we will stay loving always...cant imagine life without u dear...u will always be part of me...something like a twin...i can say dat we r alike in some ways...watever it is,im glad that u r my girlfriend....i wil neva cheat on you dear...u will forever be in my heart...muacks..lots of hugs and kisses from me to you honey....

these are the another 2 names dat both BABY and i hav came up with for our future children when we r on the fone last nite

Eddy Shafirhan Mraz
Dewi Shazlin Mraz

i noe its common and simple...but i find short and sweet....who noes mayb my dream of having lots of kids will come true?..haha...its up to BABY and me to make the dream possible

11more days to our 6mths anniversary honey!...im going to make it xtra special...

i have to wait 5more days before i can say goodbye to 2006.....im going to celebrate that special day with my loved one....

and good luck with ur losing weight programme dear...i'll be very happy and proud of u if u lose some weight..but even if u dun,i'll still love u so dun worry abt it k...

2006-12-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

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Cousins who are married:

-Gavin Gomez(28)

wife:Jennifer Elena Marichalar(27)

daughter:Tasha Michelle Gomez(5)

son:Travis Matthew Gomez(5)

son:Tyler Michael Gomez(3)

-Rachel Gomez(25)

husband:Kevin Frederick Nikopolidis(26)

son:Scott Hezyer Angelos Nikopolidis(2)

son:Seann Darien Andreas Nikopolidis(3mths old)

-Ashley Carlos(27)

husband:Damien Glenn Kutcher(28)

daughter:Ciara Electra Kutcher(4)

son:Jeriel Oliver Kutcher(2)

-Zara Carlos(26)

husband:Danny Rafael Van der Vaart(29)

son:Jaden Miguel Van der Vaart(4)

daughter:Nicole Sienna Van der Vaart(3)

daughter:Hayley Zahara Van der Vaart(1)

2006-12-22T13:44:00.000+08:00

My Relatives

(dad's side)

Grandpa:Juan Fabio Carlos Mraz

Grandma:Elena Frederica Portillo

1st child:Melissa Elizabeth Jane Mraz(53) married Paul Joseph Gomez(57)

-Gavin Philip Gomez(28)

-Rachel Kristen GOmez(25)

2nd child:Amanda Jennifer Hazel Mraz(50) married Erik Sebastian Carlos(51)

-Ashley Erika Rae Carlos(27)

-Zara Dianne Rae Carlos(26)

-Wayne Marius Jay Carlos(23)

3rd child:Felipe Alexander Miguel Mraz(48,daddy) married Nurul Trisha Khan(46,mummy)
-Shafiq Dominic Travis Mraz(22)

-Taufiq Cleophas Matthew Mraz(20)

-Shirin Michelle Rachel Mraz(18)

4th child:Nicolas Frederick Damien Mraz(46) married Ayumi Nakamura(44)

-Jeremy Benjamin Toro Mraz(21)

-Maria Francessa Aiko Mraz(17)

5th child:Jessica Melanie Clara Mraz(44) married Michael James Perez(47)

-Paris Felicia Perez(18)

-Justin Marius Perez(15)

6th child:Javier Christopher Gareth Mraz(42) married Wendy Angeline Garcia(41)

-Charline Devon Mraz(17)

-Daniel Jeffrey Mraz(16)

-Branden Hezyer Mraz(15)

2006-12-22T13:39:00.000+08:00

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Cousins who are already married:
-Muhd Fazly Khan(26)
wife:Nurul Farhanah Bte Abdul Rashid(26)
son:Syed Rihan Sufihan Khan(4)
daughter:Risha Suliana Putri Khan(2)
son:Riyan Syafiq Adly Khan(1mth old)
-Muhd Fauzie Khan(24)
wife:Effa Nazira Bte Muhd Rizal(22)
daughter:Sheila Farzanah Khan(2mths old)

2006-12-22T12:58:00.000+08:00

My Relatives

(mum's side)

Grandpa:Syed Hussein Khan

Grandma:Nurul Fatima Bte Abdul Aziz

1st child:Muhd Yusry Khan(51) married Amelia Nasha Bte Irshad(48)

-Muhammad Fadly Shaheeran Khan(26)

-Muhammad Fauzie Suhaimi Khan(24)

2nd child:Nurul Nadia Khan(49) married Sean Michael Marsden(51)

-Ashfiq Stefan Benjamin Marsden(25)

-Asha Nadira Victoria Marsden(22)

-Sarah Amira Jessica Marsden(21)

-Neha Syamin Michelle Marsden(20)

-Kabir Hussain Reynold Marsden(17)

3rd child:Muhd Aidil Khan(48) married Syakella Suriadi(47)

-Muhammad Razid Khan(23)

-Abdul Salim Khan(21)

4th child:Nurul Trisha Khan(46,mummy) married Felipe Alexander Miguel Mraz(48,daddy)

-Shafiq Dominic Travis(22)

-Taufiq Cleophas Matthew Mraz(20)

-Shirin Michelle Rachel Mraz(18)

5th child:Muhd Sherhan Khan(43) married Nurul Diyana Bte Zulfadly(40)

-Shaheen Natasha Azrina Khan(21)

-Muhammad Rafeeq Sufian Khan(20)

-Daniel Zuladly Hidayat Khan(18)

6th child:Nurul Suhana Khan(41) married 1st husband(divorced):Muhd Rafi Bin Haizad(41) and 2nd husband:Paul Branden Ruser(46)

-Nur Atiqah Bte Muhammad Rafi(15)

-Nur Alysa Bte Muhammad Rafi(13)

-Nicholas John Syahir Ruser(9)

-Dominic James Syafir Ruser(7)

7th child:Muhd Amer Khan(40) married Nur Amaliyah Bte Mazlan(41)

-Nur Elyana Khan(14)

-Nur Nabila Khan(11)

-Nur Aqillah Khan(8)

-Syed Syahid Khan(5)

8th child:Nurul Marisha Khan(36) married Muhd Izwan Bin Md Nasir(36)

-Zurin Natasha Bte Muhd Izwan(7)

-Danish Irfan Bin Muhd Izwan(5)

2006-12-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

im supposed to be in school today but i didnt go because im dont feel too good...and im taking way too long to recover...i dont know why but i dun feel good abt everything today...i can kind of sense that something bad is going to happen soon...but i hope that it wun and will neva happen..i didnt even have the mood to eat which is strange cause i usually hav the mood for food....put all that aside for now,im missing you honey...i noe u cant kol now cause ur mum's already at home but dat's ok...i'll wait for the usual timing...muacks....

i have no idea on what else to blog...my life must be very boring compared to others...i wish i can get out and enjoy life but then again i hav a very tight schedule and i've committments in life so yea..i cant be possibly enjoying my life all the time...i need to discipline myself too..and that get that temper of mine under control.....

anyway Christmas is coming and my family is doing a last min shopping...im wondering till now what will i get on that day...but the best part is all of us including my extended family r going to be there on both Xmas eve and on Xmas itself...im going to have lots of fun...since BABY is going to be there too...1 more week to Xmas ppl!....and there's the New Year's countdown...im going to out all night with baby...im getting excited each time i think abt tiz...im counting down the days till these two very special days arrive....i have lots of special memories in 2006 and there r lots of tears too..i wish that 2007 will be a better year for me...and if everything goes well,im getting engaged to BABY!....i will make dat come true dear..hearts u....

i guess datz it for now...im lazy to update the blog these days but i'll try to kick dat bad habit of mine...anyway start working hard Taufiq cause vacation's over and get ur sorry ass to school regularly!...haha...a little reminder for myself...

and to honey...i love u so much...muacks..muacks...my love for u is getting deeper each day....

2006-12-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

today im very bad..because of me,BABY is kind of upset with me..i hang up the fone on her,scolded her and said some really nasty words..im sorry dear..i dont know why suddenly i find everybody irritating today...whatever it is,BABY and i are ok right now...love u honey...muacks...

dear,i would like to thank you for buying me that thing..but im feeling very guilty too...u didnt tell me that u didnt hav any money left after buying that thing and right now,u r left with so little cash..how are you going to cope with that amt of money?..im so sorry..because of me,u got no money now..and to make things worse,ur mum and siblings r still not back yet..i shouldnt have asked to you to buy that thing for me...it was so selfish of me...if you had told me earlier,i wouldnt hav allowed you to buy it...i wanted to pay you back but u refused to accept it...the thing is i can only pay u back once i got a job..im short of cash myself now...and i cant keep asking my mum for money..i have to figure out a way somehow...i hate living a life without having sufficient money all the time...

but dont you worry...i'll still get you the keychain that u wanted for your hp...if u r willing to sacrifice to get me something instead of buying clothes for yourself,why cant i do the same too?..although i've less than $20 right now,i'll still spend it on you...to prove to u that im not stingy with my money...i'll give you some money to get the things that u wanted all this while once i get my 1st pay...that is if i got a job....i will not give up and find a job soon...that is my promise to you

anyway im sorry for putting down the fone dat fast just now...mummy wants to use the fone too..hope u understand...i will call you if i can use the fone again...i miss you dear...i hope i will not fall asleep early today....muacks muacks....

im still in love with you....only you,Ismanina Ibrahim...muacks...

2006-12-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

im just sick and tired of sitting at home all the time....because im sick,im not allowed to go out unless i've recovered..

at least something brightens up my day today...finally there's network coverage in my house...im damn happy...coz i can talk to BABY as usual...im missing her so badly right now....

but she's abit different today...i can sense that she's having another person in her life besides me...i understand that she cant use the phone the whole day cause she didnt want either her aunty or grandma to know that she's on vacation...if she uses the phone to call me,they cant get thru and frm there,they will noe that BABY's actually at home and will ask her to come over or sleep at their house which is sumting she doesnt want since we wont get to spend the time together and there will be no privacy...she doesnt hav a call waiting for her home fone and ppl can easily noe that u r using the fone if they cant get thru

anyway BABY's sort of ignoring me...i asked to get the prepaid sim card for me but in the end i told her not to get it for me instead i told her to get me a handphone strap...her place is raining quite heavily and she's afraid to use the phone so our conversation were not very long...later she told me that the handphone strap that was sold near her house was not to her fancy and she would to go to Jurong Point tomoro to look for it...she told me that when i called her again..then when i said i wanted to put down the fone,she was so eager to do so...usually she's not like that..she would plead with me to accompany her on her way home..this is so unlike her..i just dont know where i've gone wrong...

why are you doing this to me dear?...if u hav somebody else in mind,please tell me...i wont be angry about it...im not being emotional or paranoid here...it's just that ur actions r telling me that u r no longer interested in me...that's ok...i can accept it...maybe there's someone else who can give lots of happiness more than i do....

dont bother to explain yourself to me later..im no longer interested to hear any of it...whatever it is,im still very much in love with you....and i hope u'll be mine forever....take care dear..hav a safe journey home...muacks...

2006-12-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today....

i cant talk to BABY at night and even during the day for now cause there's no network coverage in my house...that suckz...it's only when im outside the house that i can use the hp...thought of changing frm singtel to starhub...not only there's not network for the singtel prepaid,the singtel lines that both my parents r using r not working too...i wonder what's wrong....damn it...

im going to miss you again dear...i wanted to talk to you so badly...but all this is preventing us frm doing so...i noe u r upset and so am i...wish this didnt have to happen...

btw im still sick and BABY said that my voice is kind of weird...haha...i hope that i'll recover soon..the illness is driving me crazy...i cant even sleep properly at night...

i guess dat's it for today...i dunno wat else to update cause my head's really spinning right now...

2006-12-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

finally today is the last day of school/work for BABY...she'll be on vacation starting from next week....yey2!!!....cant wait to spend dat time with her coz im still on vacation too...im planning to hav a sleepover at her house...dunno whether it's a good idea or not but i' guess i hav to give it a try...also i wanna go sightseeing ard singapore,go to places that both of us hav not been yet...or perhaps we could go to the neighbouring country just for the day...BABY told me that she wanted to go to a resort as a holiday retreat but i doubt either of her parents will agree to it...futhermore her mum,siblings are still in malaysia and only her dad is here...but i will still consider that....

i will make full use of next week....i'll spend every single time with you before i have to get back to school...and by then,i will be very busy...so if i dun really hav lots of time to spend with you,i would like to apologise beforehand...but dun worry,whatever it is,u will always be on the top on my list of important people and i'll neva forget you....

btw i cant wait to introduce you to my family and of course my extended family who are coming to Spore for this Xmas...im sure that they will like you coz they are all very nice people...especially my grandparents...so dun be afraid of meeting them k...i'll intro them to you on our reunion dinner on Xmas eve and also u will join in the celebrations on Xmas day itself..im confident enuf dat u will enjoy urself while being with my family...

im missing you honey....i noe u must be sleeping right now cause u r tired and also u wanna restore dat energy of yours so that u can talk to me longer tonight...i love u so much dear...thanks for calling me just now..it was so sweet of you....

i wanna be with you on New Year's Eve.....lets do the countdown together...and i'll kiss you when the fireworks goes off....that will be the kiss of your life...haha...

2006-12-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

this is pictures of my son,Rey Ezekiel Arffan Mraz..it was his mum who send the pictures...Rey is already 2years old this year...i miss you so much son!..hope to see you soon...

Rey with the eggs

Rey at his favourite place,the fridge

Rey Mraz...the poster boy!!

Prince Rey...at his birthday bash

bad hair day

Rey with mummy

2006-12-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today...but i really had a bad fight with BABY yet again...and i hav to admit dat it is my fault this time...i didnt want her to go to work cause i wanted her to keep me company but i know dat she cant do dat...i understand dat she got rules to follow but i still threw tantrums at her and even cause her to be late for work...im so sorry dear...i didnt mean anyting like dat to happen...just dat i miss you so much..im really too much this time...i promise u dat it wun happen again...i even threaten to leave u alone here..i must change my attitude too...its getting worse...it's just a day after our anniversary and this is happening..i just cant believe it...i'll try not to repeat my mistakes again...forgive me dear....

the things that im would like to apologise for

for going out with my cousins to have fun instead of spending it with you on our anniversary
for getting myself drunk yesterday
for forcing you to listen to me all the time
for picking a fight with you early in the morning just now
for all the harsh words that i've used on you

i will change myself for you dear...i dun want you to suffer when you r with me...u have shed too many tears for me and i wouldnt any more of it...seeing/hearing you cry really breaks my heart..i will got myself to blame if i ever lose you to another guy...im really3 sorry dear...watever it is,im glad dat we r ok now...im missing you though...cant wait to talk to you again...muacks..muacks...love you so much....

2006-12-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

i hope i will not make my girl sad or angry today coz she's down with the girl's thingy...i only got to know abt it when she called me early in the morning...and im sure she will be not comfortable as she got to work in the afternoon...hope u r alright dear...i miss you...muacks...

about what happened yesterday,im so sorry abt it...i didnt expect u to break down lyke dat...usually u weren't dat emotional but i hav to admit that yesterday was totally not i've expected...i should hav known earlier dat its PMS...sorry for not understanding you...i just didnt want you to go,datz all....but i know dat is kinda selfish of me...i hope you know why im doing all this...i didnt expect us to quarrel again yesterday...u should know dat i cant stand all this emotions in our relationship...maybe a little will do but definitely not alot of it...i too must make some changes in my attitude...im not perfect either...both of us must help each other in this and make our relationship an everlasting one...remember all of the promises dat we've made to each other?...i want all of it to come true...i will make u happy no matter what....

1more day to our anniversary darling!!......i just cant believe dat it's this fast...this 5months with you is filled with joy,laughter and happiness...i've neva been happy although i've been in alot of relationships...it's like i've known you forever...and i know that u r the one for me...the one who's going to be with me for the rest of my life...love you lots honey...muacks...muacks...i wanna talk to you again dear so come home soon later....

2006-12-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

next month,im going to be an uncle for the third time....my sis-in-law is giving birth soon...to a baby boy....it's boys fever in the Mraz family...

my elder bro who is only 22yrs old got married to his girlfriend of 4years in 2003 after their eldest son turned 1...his birth was not a planned one...up to now they have 2 sons together whose names are Sly Jeriel Razif Mraz and Chad Michael Syarriz Mraz....Sly is currently 3years old and Chad is only 1years old....my brother wanted a daughter this time..but got a boy instead...he was not disappointed though...he even told me that his wife and him might try again for another baby....that shocked me as he told me earlier that he only wanted 2 children max...and each time his wife is pregnant,he would hav to go thru 9mths of HELL....haha....i pity him at times...but i noe dat he works hard for his family....unlike other ppl who live off their wives or force them to work...at least he is independent enuf to support his family....im proud of him....

anyway the soon-to-be born child will be name Krish Sebastian Aqim Mraz...it was given by me and BABY...my bro thought it was a nice name too...and decided to name his child that...both Sly and Chad cant wait for their new baby brother's arrival...even the room is decorated in baby blue...and everything from clothes to toys r already in place....i hope he would sumting like his elder brothers...my bro is going to withness his birth and record it in his video cam...he did dat for his 2 elder sons' birth too...

sometimes when i look at my nephews,my thoughts went to my son who is living in Spain right now..i miss him badly...wish that he's right here living with me...i regretted not taking him in my custody...but i know he would eventually lead a better life with his mum...i just hope that when he's older,he'll acknowledge me as his father...datz all that i wish for....hope u noe dat im missing u Rey...i will call you when i got time to spare...

and to BABY....may we have an everlasting relationship together...im sorry for all my mistakes that i've committed all this while...i want you to know that i will love you and life is impossible without you....i need u by my side always....someday we will build our small happy family together just like my brother...im missing u right now honey....come home soon....dun forget to eat during your break time...and take care of yourself....muacks...muacks....

your love will never be forgotten....it will always remain in my heart....

2more days to our 5mth anniversary baby!!!!!!!!.......

2006-12-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i've last post an entry here..i've been busy with my schoolwork and lots of other stuff too...and also there r some personal reason as to why i've not been blogging...

anyway right now im talking on the fone with BABY right now...so pardon me if im writing crap later...i got nothing to do these days since im on school vacation right now...i've tried looking for a job but lately i've been told that there r no vacancies...there's a job waiting for me and that is working in my dad's company but i didnt like dat job and working with my dad can be very boring..i hope to get a job soon...BABY's helping me by asking her friends around...thanks alot dear..muacks...

also,i spend all my time today on the fone wit my BABY...had a great time talking to her..i just cant gt enuf of u honey...i wanna more of u....haha....especially tonight....u should noe wat izzit..

im having another headache right now and its hurting badly....i dont know what's happening to me...i should book an appointment with the doctor soon...this headache has been going for days now and the medication dat im taking right now is not dat effective...

honey.....3more days to our 5mth anniversary!!....i cant believe dat we make it this far...i hope that there will be fewer misunderstandings in the future...i dun want to lose you bcoz of this...i can sense dat we will always be together forever...i love u dear....muacks....

I've made a vow, to no one but you

I pledge my love to forever be true

I'll take care of you and treat you right

I'll lay beside you all through the night

I'll feed you and clothe you and keep you warm

I'll hug you and kiss you and give shelter in the storm

I'll help you and guide you and clear a path

I'll protect you and shield you from an angry man's wrath

I'll listen to your problems help you solve them too

I'll make you a rainbow and let the sun shine through

I'll take your side even if you're wrongJust to prove our love is strong

I'll plant you flowers and make them grow

They'll be a symbol of love that only we'll know

I'll whisper your name when no one is near

So low that only you can hear

You'll feel my love even if we're apart

You'll know that we are one in heart

2006-11-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

this is another of my cousin's family...She is Ashley Carlos,married to Damien Glenn Kutcher and they too have 2 kids...Ciara is 4 and Jeriel is 2...

picture of Ciara Electra Kutcher

picture of Jeriel Oliver Kutcher

the siblings together

2006-11-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

this is my cousin's family..they are based in Italy..my cousin,Rachel Gomez,married Kevin Frederick Nikopolidis and together they have two sons...Scott is 2 and Seann is 3mths...below are the pictures of the boys...

picture of Scott Hezyer Angelos Nikopolidis

picture of Seann Darien Andreas Nikopolidis

the boys together with their dad

2006-11-23T15:06:00.000+08:00

im so tired today...just reached home from school...i decided to update tiz blog quickly coz BABY's going to read it later and she wants lots of entries as possible...btw i miss u honey...hope ur work is finishing soon...cant wait to call you....muacks...

the conversation between us early in the morning before u went to work was a sweet one indeed...although i was only half awake,i still managed to talk u...im sorry if im always sleepy these days...im just too tired at times...but i'll try my best to b awake whenever u call me during those time...and dun feel bad about it....im da one who insisted on talking to you just now...coz i noe both of us miss each other so much....

school's boring as usual..i slept thru most of the lessons and even the lectures...and had to b called out by the professor....i got a dressing down frm him..but i just totally ignored watever he said to me...i dun give a damn abt school anymore....i didnt noe dat life at university can b so boring...only the geeks would enjoy going to such places....nevertheless,i cant wait for my course to end and graduate quickly...i want to do more fun and exciting tings in life.....

honey,dont forget to visit Aisyah's blog...she wrote something for you....

i love u so much dear....come home soon...im waiting .....for you

and i cant wait for tonite too..we r going to get hot and dirty....haha....muacks.....

2006-11-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

im blogging and talking on the fone wit BABY at the same time now...

anyway it was tiring day for me today...i had to clean the house all by myself...mummy had some other urgent matter to attend to and my cousin did not want to help me at all....wat a useless bum!!....i cant wait for my maids to come back...im sick and tired of all this..i hate doing the household chores all the time....it's acceptable when doing it at certain point of time but of course not all the time...i juz had enuf of it...

im not in school today bcoz i juz dont feel like going...the lectures and lessons r getting boring each day..how i wish i dun hav to attend school....i should hav travel around the world instead or perhaps help out my dad at his company...but my parents wanted to me to get a degree and they place alot of hope on me since my elder bro didnt make it to the university...he graduated with only a A level cert....

it feels good hearing my BABY's voice juz now....i miss you so much honey....im glad dat ur work is done and u r home fast...i cant wait to talk to u later....i wanna spend as much time as possible wit u...im afraid i cant do dat once i start working...but somehow we have to compromise wit each other k..i'll try my best to spend all my free time wit u...nothing is impossible...dun worry,i wun change or watsoever and i will get hold of my temper....i hope u will try to understand me just like wat im doing now....

and i cant wait for our date this saturday....i wil spend all my time wit you....its shopping time for you dear...im going to get u anyting dat u want...hope u happy abt tiz...i noe u cant wait for me to get dat shoe for you....only both of us noe the reason why...haha....

i love you.i miss you.i need you.i want you.

muacks muacks honey....u r mine forever....no one can ever separate us.....

2006-11-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

this entry was posted by Ismanina Ibrahim,my BABY,.....

today was a good day for me...i woke up late for work and DARDAR offered to send me to work at AH since he decided not to go to school....and guess wat?..i got a morning kiss frm him...

besides that,it was tiring at work because i hav to attend to many patients...

btw thanks for accompanying me while on the way...it was so sweet of you to talk to me in a loving manner...i like it...muacks...

i just want to say this to my dardar....I LOVE YOU HUBBY!!!!......muacks....

and also im looking forward to the call later honey....i got lots to tell you....

2006-11-19T16:04:00.000+08:00

BABY's going to read my blog today....im so happy...haha....

anyway yesterday night while we r on da fone...we had a fight again and tiz time i asked for a break...it was a hasty decision and i regretted it...but luckily after the both of us calm down,i managed to get us back together again...watever it is,i still love her so much...i cant just control dat temper of mine...im sorry dear...i shouldnt hav done dat..im under too much stress which is why i wanted dat breakup...

we had a good day today....spend most of the time talking on the fone...i juz cant get enuf of her...i want her to be with me forever....i still missing u honey although it's only been a while since we talk to each other....i hope u will change ur attitude sumhow but no matter how bad u may b,i'll always love you.....

besides dat,nothing much happen today....wat a boring day...wish there's sumting for me to do...

btw im going to get u dat SHOE for you soon honey...i noe u r sick and tired of the shoe dat u r wearing now and also due to sum other reason....u should noe why...haha...

when u get your pay...dun forget to treat me....i'm waiting for dat day to come...hahaha....juz kidding..u dun hav to treat me...i want u to save up dat money...so dat u can buy the tings dat u've always wanted....instead im going to be dat one who's going to treat you....no special occasion..i juz feel lyke giving u a treat....

here's sumting for u.....

You are my air

The sun in my day

The moon in my night

The spring in my step

You are my everything.

You are the stars in the sky

The birds in the trees

The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine.

Without the light you put into my life

I would be nothing

A single leaf on the ground in autumn,

Lost, forgotten, alone.

Before i knew you,I was nothing.

Now I am everything,

With you at my side,I am invincible!

Feel the same my baby,

You are loved so much,

I love you now and forever

You are my darling, my baby, my love

You are my everything

I love you so much.

P.S:dont forget to tag my blog honey....

2006-11-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

today wasnt a good day for me and BABY....

since mummy had gone over to my aunty's house,the only ppl left in my house is myself,my cousin and daddy....im in charge of the household chores since mummy's not there...i called BABY when i finished most of the chores....

the conversation lasted for abt 5hours...frm 1plus to nearly 6...the starting of the conversation went smoothly and we had a great time talking to each other...we were laughing and talking abt our future..but then tings went wrong when suddenly BABY told me abt da incident which happened so long time ago....she told me not to get angry and i did...i just dunno why she's not being truthful to me...i mean she should hav told me earlier...what's the use of telling me now?...i cant do anyting abt it...futhermore the incident is considered sumting important...and it is abt me,BABY and another person...i dun wish to go into further details coz its too personal to tell it here and no one else should noe except for me and BABY....

Honey...i didnt ask for much...all i want is ur love and for you to be truthful to me...a relationship is useless if u are not being truthful to me..i dun expect u to tell me everyting but should the matter concerns us or me,u should quickly tell me...and not wait till the last minute...i've given u everyting dat u wanted all tiz wile...i was so heartbroken juz now...i didnt expect this frm u...i thought u will be truthful to me since i've been truthful to u all this wile..not even once did i lie to you except for a particular incident where i lied bcoz i didnt want to hurt ur feelings....im sorry dat i asked for a separation juz now...im juz too stress..im having too many problems and i cant handle it..i really hope dat u understand da position dat im in now...i need u by my side dear...please...dun ever hurt my feelings again...i love u so much and i hope u wun ever do tiz again...watever it is,i've forgiven u for ur mistakes....

about ur injury...im so sorry....bcoz im scolding BABY all the time on the fone,she tripped on a wire and her forehead hit the side of the bed....she told me dat it was bleeding badly...it's all my fault..i shouldnt hav scolded you...after dat,i felt so bad and my heart began to soften...i didnt mean for the injury to happen...hope it will heal soon...muacks....

right now,im glad dat we r back to normal....both of us make it up to each other and i managed to make her smile in the end...i hope u noe wat im expecting frm u in the time to come honey...i swear dat i wun ever leave you...there's no one else whom i love in tiz world...u r the only one...trust me...i've nothing to do wit my ex anymore...we r over...and u r my future...i want u to noe no matter how sad or angry i am,i'll always be there to make u smile...i want u to be the happiest girl alive dear...im doing all tiz for you...i dun want any more misunderstanding between us...what happened today was really bad and i dun want another repeat of it...muacks..muacks....

remember to call me later...im waiting for your call....let's watch the stars together tonight...haha...muacks....

i want you tonight darling.....

2006-11-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

This 2 poems are just for you..

hope u like it

If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

A gentle word like a spark of light,Illuminates my soul And as each sound goes deeper,It's YOU that makes me whole...There is no corner, no dark place,YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves,It's your devotion that makes them still And yes you always speak to me,In sweet honesty and truth Your caring heart keeps out the rain,YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof...So thank you my Love for being there,For supporting me, my life I'll do the same for you, you know,My Beautiful, Darling Barney..

come home soon honey...

im missing you badly

and i cant wait to talk to you

muacks..muacks..

2006-11-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

My Fav Royal Kids...they are frm the Spanish Royal Family..eldest is Juan Valentin who is 7 this yr,followed by Pablo Nicolas Sebastian who is 6 and lastly Miguel who is 4....parents are Inaki Urdangarin and Infanta Cristina Of Spain...

Juan Valentin Urdangarin Of Spain

another picture of Juan Valentin Urdangarin

Pablo Nicolas Sebastian Urdangarin of Spain

another picture of Pablo Nicolas Urdangarin

Miguel Urdangarin Of Spain

another picture of Miguel Urdangarin

the three siblings together

2006-11-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

i just got the chance to update my blog now...i've been bz for the whole day....besides revising,im also helping my mum with the household chores since my maids hav all gone on a holiday...datz a tradition in the Mraz family...maids r humans too and they need the break....anyway....actually i went online earlier just now,but couldnt sign in to MSN which is just too bad...but luckily i could sign in just recently...

Right now as im updating tiz blog of mine,im talking to BABY on the fone which i find is so sweet...haha...but she's been abit paranoid and emotional lately...maybe it is due to PMS...but datz ok..i can cope with it...it's my duty to be patient with her especially in times lyke tiz...how i wish i can make her smile now...she seems to be in a bad mood when we r on the fone right now..datz bcoz she's very quiet and wouldnt want to talk to me unless i quickly update my blog and switch off the pc....but problem is my mind is juz blank and i dun hav any idea on wat to update...besides nothing interesting happen today...i shouldnt hav update my blog now...

anyway,i just to tell u dat i miss u so much BABY...i hope u dun change anyting abt yourself...i love the way u r right now...im sorry if im too demanding all tiz while...i dun expect much frm u really...all i want is ur love and im happy enuf that u came into my life and make me the happiest guy alive...for dat,i promise u dat i am neva going to leave ur side and wanna b wit u forever...lots of hugs and kisses frm me to you....muacks...muacks....

2006-11-15T19:28:00.000+08:00

i've just finished talking to BABY just now...i miss her so much....she's still at work though...her shift only ends at 9 so there's like 1hr 30mins more to go...i cant wait for her to end her work...i want her to come home soon....

anyway...i went school ard 1 just now since there's nothing on in the morning....it was kinda boring...if i had known dat there werent much activities to do,i wouldnt have come...what a waste of time!..sleeping at home would b a much better option....reached home ard 5plus just now...didnt do much upon returning home...all i do is eat and watch tv....even the programme on cable arent helping...i just too bored...

i decided not to buy the PSP after viewing its website...i find datz it's really not worth...first of all,the set itself is very costly...and u gt to purchase sum other software to go along wit it...and also,the games r kinda expensive..luckily i do some research first befoe buying.....just to play safe...unless somebody frm my extended family is considering giving me the PSP as a CHRISTMAS gift,im not buying dat thing.....

this is for you honey....

I don't know what I did to deserve you...but I thank the Lord above...that He's given me the gift of you to share our special love.Like a favorite blanket on a chilly night or when I'm feeling blue..Your love wraps itself around me...like a special hug from you.I love having a girlfriend like you and I know this much is true...Of all the people who could have stolen my heart...I'm so happy it was you.

Taufiq Cleophas Matthew Mraz and Ismanina Ibrahim

the pair that will always be

together as one forever

2006-11-14T12:50:00.000+08:00

right now,im blogging frm school using my laptop....i've decided to blog since i got nothing to do anyway....

to start it all,im having a really bad sorethroat....its been lyke dat for the past few days...i hope it will recover soon...anyway i miss BABY so much..she's working in the hospital right now and she cant reply my msgs since she's very busy...datz ok...i understand the position dat she's in...i wun get angry lyke i used to...coz at the end of the day,i find dat its not worth it to get angry over minor things...i dun want our relationship to suffer...i love u so much and i dun want to us to fighting all the time...i want to make u happy always and i want to see dat smile in you....everything i do,it's for you dear...muacks..muacks...hope u will smile while reading my entries later...they r all meant for u...muacks...

i've been very happy when im wit you all this while....although there r times when we dun agree wit each other,dat doesnt mean i hate u or i dun love u anymore....u've been a very gf to me during these 4months and in time to come....i just hope that our relationship will last forever...till eternity...your love for me is so special dat im sure dat i will neva get it again in my life ever should we ever break up sumday....i wanna b with you forever dear..forgive me for all my mistakes honey...i swear dat i will change da dark side of me just for you....i love you...muacks...muacks...come home soon later....i cant wait to talk to you....

you will always be my sunshine dear....the one dat's shining brightly in my life and heart ever since the day dat we r united as one...6th July 2006....i love you wholeheartedly.....muacks....

2006-11-13T21:14:00.000+08:00

if Nina and i were to get married someday...i would like to have 4kids together with her.....we have come up with these names for our future-kids though....to us,its nice but im not sure abt others....and i want the boy to b the first child in the family...but if we get a girl instead,it would b fine too....coz i juz love kids.....and i'll shower them wit all my love,care and attention...haha

1st child:Shah Iskandar Mikhail Mraz
2nd child:Tasha Elyana Mraz
3rd child:Nafiq Qushairy Mraz
4th child:Fiqah Andrisha Mraz

if Lady Luck is on our side,mayb we will have more than just 4kids...hehe

and btw,the both of us have decided to get engaged next year...if everyting goes well...i just cant wait to live with her....i wanna marry u soon honey...muacks....

2006-11-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

Barney and Baby Bugs Bunny....datz you and me...haha....

2006-11-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

something for honey....hope u like it...muacks....

2006-11-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

i've been busy with my school work and in the midst of that,im also revising for the upcoming tests which is taking place next week....besides that,i'm devoting all my time to BABY since her return last Sunday evening...but unfortunately,things hav not be going well as we expected...i juz hope that there will b lesser fights in the future...

today it was snowing(raining) when i got home from school...i was so tired...i managed to talk to BABY on the fone while she's on her way home...i gt to noe dat she sprained her ankle during her work at the hospital and she sort of had to limp on her way home...poor BABY...i told her to b careful the next time round....i dun want her to get hurt in any way...wish i was beside her during that point of time...and to add on to her pain,we even had a disagreement on the phone and she was in tears yet again...sorry dear...i didnt mean to hurt ur feelings...i just wanted to express out my feelings and my thoughts on our relationship...plz dun think negatively or dat i dun want to b wit u anymore...u noe dat i will neva leave you...i love u so much and its getting deeper each day...muacks...muacks....

Honey.....I love you for the woman you are, I love you for the things you do, I love you for the things you say. But most of all I love you because you love me for the man I am, for the things I do and for the things I say. I love you.

2006-11-11T14:57:00.000+08:00

today is my first proper day without BABY....i miss her so much...i cant wait to her to come back...i didnt sleep well too yesterday..usually we would talk on da fone but i was all alone since she was not here....im glad for my cousin's company who came to my house last night....and had a sleepover...

anyway today was really a bad day for me..other than da fact dat she's not here,i got scolded by my mum for a couple of times and da words dat she used was really very hurting..at times i got scolded bcoz of sumbody's mistake...it's really not fair...i feel lyke running away but it's no point..im da one who will b at a loss...i juz cant stand staying in dat house of mine..i had enuf...i wanna move out a.s.a.p....and there's no one whom i can complain to...usually BABY is the one who's there for me..i neva felt tiz lonely before...and i juz cant do anyting right..i keep thinking abt her all the time...come home soon dear..i gt lots to tell you....

i hope u'll call me soon....im grateful even if the conversation is less than a min...i juz want to hear your voice...and contact me as soon as u reach Singapore...i'll be patiently waiting for u....even though we r apart,my love for u will neva fade away...muacks..muacks...love u lots honey...

2006-11-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

this is the song which i let u listened to the other night...i find it very meaningful...juz for dear...muacks...

2006-11-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

im very sad today since im going to be alone here without the company of BABY who's at Johor right now due to her bro's medical condition....she's only coming back on Sunday....im going to miss her so much...and i will b very lonely....

before she went off,we had tiz really bad fight...i ended up hurting her by scolding her and saying some things which i shouldnt have..im sorry dear...im juz too angry at dat time...i dun want you to go datz all..i dun want to b all alone for the 2nd time in a row...its juz too much...we hardly spent time together these dayz due to the clash in our school's schedule and yet u r going away....but datz ok...i dun really have an upper hand in everyting and u really got no choice since ur mum's decision is final....forgive me for saying all those juz now and also for being selfish..u should noe dat i didnt mean it....u r all dat i need dear...hope u understand...

im sorry abt my attitude too....i placed u first before anyting else...abt my frenz juz now,i didnt even arranged any meeting wit them...i juz bumped into them when im on my way to return my library book datz all....earlier on i went out wit mummy to get sumting and i switched off my hp bcoz my batt's flat...u r getting too emotional and suspicious these days and datz sumting which i dun really lyke...i hope u can change ur attitude too...we must do sumting abt our relationship if we wanna b wit each other longer....im doing all this for u and our relationship dear...dont ever tink that sum other gerl is better than u coz we both noe dat its nt true....i'll always love u and it shall remain dat way forever....im so stress wit my life which is why i get mad easily at times and its getting harder for me to get hold of my temper...im so sorry....

anyway i cant wait for u to come home...i thought dat we could talk on the fone till mrng tonight but it seems dat all dat will not come true..im juz so sad....hope u noe dat im missing u so much...muacks...muacks...dun worry...i'll always b ur hero....Taufiq Mraz...the boy who lives in ur heart...muacks..:)

i'll promise u dat i'll change for the better dear..i wanna b wit you forever....

btw dun forget abt ur promise....da one abt u not going to school on Monday...i'll keep dat in mind...

2006-11-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

today is my 20th birthday!!!!...yey2!!!!!

finally i've turned 20 for good...haha...my wish is to stay healthy always and an everlasting relationship with BABY!!!!

as expected,BABY was the first one to wish yesterday...but i was really bad..half throughout our conversation,i fell asleep and left her alone..it was only at ard 1plus am dat i woke up and called her back..im sorry darling...my eyes always gave away at the wrong time...i noe u r very upset wit my attitude nowadays...especially tiz morning...ard the time when u r going to work...once again,im sorry abt dat...i feel very bad abt wats happening between us...

anyway right now,i dun feel lyke celebrating my birthday at all since BABY's not with me..she's working and i noe dat she's very upset although she 's trying her best to hide all her sadness juz to make me feel good...u can fool others but not me dear...i noe u well enuf...how i wish i could do sumting to make u feel happy...i dun hav the mood to entertain my cousins and the rest of my extended family who are at my house now....i juz cut the cake,eat and chat for a wile before going to my room...i dunno why but i dun feel so good suddenly and i used dat as an excuse...mayb im missing my BABY so much.....

i want to noe dat im very sorry abt my attitude and antics all tiz wile....i dunno why i keep hurting u and causing u to b upset most of the time....but i really3 love u so much dear....i wouldnt want to lose u in any way...i'll call u later...cant wait to chat with you...missing u lots honey...muacks....

and before i forget,my son(dat one i had wit my ex-gf),Rey Ezekiel Arffan Mraz, called to wish me juz now...abt 1hr ago..i was so happy to hear his voice..he look so much lyke me thru da photos dat his mum send me da other time...frm wat i heard,he's growing up fast..he's already 2years old tiz year and is currently living wit my ex-gf and her fiance' in Spain...they r getting married next yr and Rey also has 2 half-bros whose name are Pablo Nicolas Frederic Gonzalez who's 1 tiz yr and Juan Valentin Benjamin Gonzalez who is 2mths old...i wish him all the best and hope he's happy wit his family there...daddy loves you rey....u r simply adorable...muacks...

2006-11-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

There's not a star in heaven that we cant reach baby.....

and also u'll always b the biggest star in my life...haha...muacks

3MORE HOURS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!!.....I CANT WAIT!!!....

2006-11-08T16:56:00.000+08:00

just reached home from sch.....it was a tiring day for me...im going to sleep after posting tiz entry

i gave a miss call to BABY and she msg me saying dat her work at the polyclinic is not over yet as there is an emergency outbreak...she'll msg me as soon as she's done wit her work...im waiting for her msg right now...i cant wait to talk to u honey...im missing u badly....muacks...

tomoro is my 20th birthday!!!!......im not very excited though...coz im turning old!!....haha....dat is of course nonsense since being only 20 is still young...im going to celebrate tiz special day wit BABY of course...being my special one has its rewards....i told her not to get me anyting since her presence alone is very meaningful to me but she insisted on giving me a present....datz's so swit of u dear...i love u so much....muacks..im going to talk to her till midnight today...since i wanna her to b the first one who will wish me....hope i will not get sleepy lyke i always do....

tiz year is very special to me as it has all our special memories in it......especially since 6th July 2006....the moment dat i've always been waiting for...to get the girl of my dreams and dat is u BABY...u r constantly in my thoughts now and forever....and being loved by you is a very special feeling dat i've ever experience in my whole life....tanx for dat love of urs honey...muacks...muacks....

2006-11-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

busy studying right now.....

but i'll b back to blog soon.....

i miss u honey!!!!.....

btw today is NinaFiq's 4month anniversary!!!...im so happy dat we make it tiz far..........

2006-11-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

just got back frm the shop with mummy.....it was so hot and im sweating all over...and on top of dat,i had to carry lots of tings...my hands r all red...poor me...before i start studying later,i decided to blog first....since BABY said dat she's reading the blog later....sorry if i cant go out wit u today...i need to go out with mummy later to get some stuff.....mayb sum other day k....

Baby,i love u so much

i miss u.....ur voice....ur laughter...everyting......

u make me go crazy over u.......

i never want to b apart frm u......

u r my everyting....

hope our relationship last forever.....

I-is a very cheerful person
S-smiling all the time
M-make my life worthwhile with her presence
A-always there for me
N-naughty and loves being pampered
I-is a very sentitive person too
N-never fail to cheer me up whenever i'm down
A-appreciates me wholeheartedly.....

I.S.M.A.N.I.N.A....the name dat will always b in heart...now and forever..till death do us apart....

being with you means everyting.....i am the luckiest guy alive to have someone like u who loves me so much and willing to do anyting juz for me...thanks syg...i'll never forget all those..

1MORE DAY TO OUR 4MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!

BABY......You're nothing short of my everything...and it will always remain dat way....muacks...

2006-11-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

ThIs is for you dear....one of my favourite songs and the song dat i always sing to you...hope u lyke it....muacks....

2006-11-04T15:37:00.000+08:00

hey there!!!...im blogging frm the hospital right now...using my dad's laptop...i hav an appointment wit da doctor regarding my operation..i tink it will b postpone due to my poor health..i've been sick for the past few days....but im recovering though....all tanx to my baby who's been there for me all tiz while....i love u sayang..muacks....

anyway right now,BABY's out wit her family for Hari Raya outing....hope u will come home soon dear...abt yesterday,im so sorry...and plz dun change anyting abt urself...i love da way u r right now...let put the past behind us k....no matter wat,i'll still need u in my life....u r my soulmate and we r a match made in heaven....no one can ever separate us....hope we can overcome all the challenges ahead in life...i would risk anyting juz to b wit you....we've gone thru so much juz to b together so lets not harm our relationship by hurting each other all the time....i wouldnt want u to shed anymore tears for me....it hurts me seeing u in dat state...once again,i would lyke to apologise for my behaviour all tiz wile.....i hope u'll forgive me...

5MORE DAYS TO MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!....im going to spend tiz special day wit BABY....u dun have to get me gifts dear,juz your Presence alone is meaningful...hope it's going to b a memorable one.....

and 2MORE DAYS TO OUR 4MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!......its fun being wit u dear for the past 4months....hope to b wit u forever....muacks....

My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never.

2006-11-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

im not in school today.....

im down wit fever...it was really bad today...i was having a hard time getting out of the bed....luckily mummy's there to help me...she was really patient wit me although i get irritated at her sumtimes....tanx mummy....i love u.....i dunno how i'll manage witout you.....

and for my hunny bunny.....im sorry abt wat happened early in the morning...i wanted to talk to u but u didnt called as promised...dat got me real mad...although u got scolded by me and eventually broke down,u r very patient wit me and even tried to calm me down...tanx for dat syg...im sorry for hurting you...i didnt mean it..if i could turn back time,i wouldnt hav done all those...i get irritated easily whenever im sick so i hope u understand...but i wouldnt want to make dat as the reason for our quarrel....sorry for failing to carry out my duty as ur boyfriend...i noe there r still lots of room for improvement...and i'll try wit all my might to make ur da happiest girl in tiz world...i wouldnt leave u all alone....i want to spend all my time wit u and i hope u can do it too although at times,u r bz wit other stuff....watever it is,u'll always hav my support in everyting u do...muacks....luv u lots2....

10 reasons why im so in love with my BABY

her smile
her good heart
the way she expresses herself to me...
her positive attitude
her laughter
being my pillar of strength
her motivation and encouragement
never fail to cheer me up and shower me wit all her love
openess in our relationship
she's very faithful and commits herself to our relationship

anyway......5more days to our 4months anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be with me forever baby.......lets reach out to the sky together!!!.....haha.....

and 1more minute to before u finish ur work!....im gonna call u soon honey...im missing u LOTS!!!

2006-10-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey there.....since im free and juz finished talking to BABY.,i've decided to post sumting today..

i went to da hospital early in the morning juz now bcoz i hav breathing difficulties and i almost fainted....it happened when i was talking to BABY on the fone b4 she went to work ard 5.45am...luckily nothing happened to me....i was told to rest more and take my medicine regularly...im sorry BABY for making u worried....im sure u r under alot of stress...but plz understand dat im not making tings difficult for u...i'll get well soon...dun u worry,i wun ever leave ur side....im very confident dat im going to b alright in the end....

about dat little misunderstanding dat we had juz now,it wasnt intentional at all...im juz in a bad mood datz all....all i want is ur attention...but i noe its kinda hard for u to focus on me alone since u gt other stuff to do...its ok dear..im still trying my best to understand da situation u r in...i'll wait patiently for u and i really cant wait for all tiz to end....i love u so much dear and i want to be with u....although there r frequent clashes between us,u should noe dat all those r not true and my love for u will neva fade away.....its juz dat mayb we r missing each other so much which is why we r behaving in dat manner at times....forgive me 4 all the mistakes i've done all tiz wile...u r my everyting darling....always remember dat....muacks.....

anyway HAPPY BELATED 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD RAFIQ!!!...hope u'll get wiser as each year gets by and make ur parents proud of u always!....im sorry dat i totally forgot all abt ur birthday....btw u got a very cute voice for a 7year old...haha
P.S:Rafiq is BABY's younger bro......

3MORE DAYS to my operation....which i hope will go smoothly....pray hard for me BABY...i wanna get well badly....right now,i must b mentally prepared for it....so hav no fear Taufiq and u'll conquer it all!...haha...juz to make myself calm down....

and also 6MORE DAYS TO OUR 4MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!....which is im looking forward to...although we've known each other for only 4mths,i felt lyke i've known u forever...u r my soulmate BABY....im crazy abt u and i need u in my life...tanx for being there for me and for that,i promise u dat im going to b by ur side forever...trust me...da name Taufiq Mraz will only b yours.....we've been thru all da ups and downs and im sure we will able to conquer all dat in the future....i've neva stop loving u since 6th July 2006....

Ismanina Ibrahim,the queen of my heart.....my heart burns for u dear....muacks.....

2006-10-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

i've not been blogging for quite sum time bcoz i've been very bz lately...i'll post more entries soon..

aNyway as of today,im at home for the whole day.....im so damn bored....im supposed to meet BABY but had to cancel it last minute due to sum personal reasons....im so sorry BABY...i'll meet up wit u soon......wish i could get out of the house or sumting lyke it...im lyke a prisoner in my own home....if my parents doesnt notice it yet,im already all grown up and i do need to get out of the house every now and then...watz da use of staying at home and do nothing but read a BOOK for the entire day??...and to make tings worse,i've hurt da sum1's feelings yet again....and HOME is HELL for me right now...sumbody get me out of here!!!!......HELP!!!

so tiz is for u BABY....hope u get to read it soon.....i juz wanna tell u dat no matter wat happens,i'll always love u and be there for u...im sorry if i mentioned the word "SEPARATE" yet again...i juz stand being left all alone...till now,i've tried my best to understand u and the situation dat u r in but i hope u can understand me too...i dun want us to be quarreling all the time..i juz hate dat...and i dun understand why we hav to fight few days before our anniversary almost every month....mayb bcoz we couldnt agree wit each other on certain issues or mayb im too sensitive to ur words...for my part,im so sorry abt dat....hope it wouldnt happen again although i noe u cant avoid tings lyke tiz....anyway for the past 3 and a half months,its been great being wit u...it's so wonderful...u make me appreciate life....and i realise dat u r da one whom i need the most in tiz world...i love u so much darling...my heart burns for u....and no1 else....i'll cherish everyting about u and i'll swear that dat i'll make tings possible always between us....without u,life is not worth it at all....juz remember tiz sentence....everyting i do,i do it for u....muacks...muacks....u'll always b part of my life...now and forever.....

9more days to our 4month anniversary!!!!!!!!.....

2006-10-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

i went to the hospital juz now wit mummy since im really sick and i couldnt stand it anymore....i received the result from my previous check up....it wasnt good at all....the doctor confirmed dat there's growth in my stomach and i need to remove it a.s.a.p...i couldnt accept da fact all tiz is happening again...im on medication and supposed to at least well enuf to go abt my daily life...but tings were not lyke wat i expected.....im so upset over all tiz...why must i be the one to suffer all tiz?...life's really unfair....watz da use of having everyting in the world when ur own health is at risk?...i dun want to go thru all this again but it seems dat history is repeating itself....how i wish im well enuf juz lyke everyone else....and to BABY,im sorry that i hav to drag u into tiz....bcoz of me,u r all worried...i didnt mean for tings to b lyke tiz....i really need u by my side at tiz point of time...i understand if u cant spend ur time wit me since u r busy wit school....i miz u so much dear...i'll try to get well soon...for ur sake...i dun want to leave u all alone in this world....i wanna b wit u always..now and forever....come home soon dear...i wanna hear ur voice....it brightens up my day each time i hear ur voice...its juz so special.....anyway im going off now to rest...im really so restless today....hope all tiz will end soon....lots of hugs and kisses frm bunny to barney...muacks...muacks.....

2006-10-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

today im sick again...im having a slight fever and headache...i really dun feel good in sch too juz now...sorry for making u worried BABY...i juz need u during time lyke tiz...i hope to get well soon a.s.a.p..i dun lyke being sick lyke tiz...i wanna be well and spend all my time wit u...i miss u so much...da short phonecall dat we had juz wasnt enuf....call me soon k syg...i'll b waiting for dat....and dun 4get to tag tiz blog.....anyway come home soon after u r done at ur aunt's place...im going to rest after tiz....im juz too tired...mayb im nt going sch tomoro...i'll c how's my condition first....hmm...i luv u so much BABY...lots of hugs and kisses frm me to u........u mean the world to me honey...tanx for being so concern abt me...i appreciate dat alot.....muacks muacks.....6 more days to Hari Raya!!!...haha....

You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes,and her eyes everywhere in the world.

here's a video for u dear...hope u lyke it since it's one of ur fav songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znGdrJSup30

2006-10-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

im SICK!!!!!!!!!!!

im down wit stomachache da whole day...the toilet's lyke my 2nd home already...spend lots of time there...its been lyke tiz for 2days already and i hope to get well real soon...and bcoz of tiz im not in school again today...took my medicine juz now...hope im ok by tomoro....coz i wanna meet BABY!!!...if im not well,then im not allowed to go out...then i cant spend my time wit BABY...i miz u so much dear...cant wait for u to finish work soon...its 3hrs and 22mins more....i'll call u after u r done wit ur work...

darling,
im sorry abt juz now...didnt mean to scold u..i juz wanna spend time wit u but u r busy chatting away wit ur frens...i juz want ur attention since im sick and there's no1 by my side...i need u dear..i hope u understand why i lost my temper at times...it wasnt intentional....hmm..dun worry too much abt me...im going to b fine...i'll always love u no matter wat...muacks..muacks...tiz is going to b tough challenge for us...we must conquer it together...i'll never b apart frm u...u r my pillar of strength...without u,im nothing....take care my love...dun u ever forget me...i'll b patiently waiting for u here....i luv u till death do us apart....muacks....

6th July 2006:the date i'll never ever forget in my entire life

2006-10-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

was at home the whole day...didnt do much really...im busy wit my studies as well wit da preparations for Hari Raya..i helped out wit the house cleaning....it was very tiring though...but i still managed to talk wit BABY on da fone...right now im missing u so much dear...hope u r home soon..she's out wit her family...hope u enjoy urself especially if u r going to Geylang since u hav not been there yet....make it a fruitful trip...i'll wait for ur call no matter no late it is....sorry abt da fight juz now...im too selfish..i juz wanted to spend time wit u...but i understand dat u stil hav to go no matter wat..sorry for being selfish...i didnt mean it....and i'll neva leave u...always remember dat leaving u will neva b sumting on my mind....and it shall remain dat way always.....love u lots.....hope to talk 2 u on da phone for as long as possible later...dat is both of us r not sleepy...haha....muacks....

Dardar,
i want u to noe dat u mean the world to me...witout u,life is meaningless...i've neva been tiz happy since da day i known u....although at times we dont click at all,we still make it up to each other at the end of the day....watz LOVE without hardship and sacrifices?...u r the only one in my heart dear...trust me...i'll neva leave u for another gerl coz i know i've found my Ms Right and dat is u,Ismanina Ibrahim...dat name will forever b engrave in my heart.....i'll treasure and cherish all the good moments dat we've shared together..they r very meaningful to me...and also i'll neva forget those rough times too...there r lessons to learn frm those....my love for u gets deeper since 6th July 2006....da date which changed my life forever..tanx for being part of my life dear....im so in love wit u...and its all bcoz u gt such a good heart....i feel special when im with u....i wanna b wit u forever...do forgive me for all the mistakes dat i've done to u...i'll try not to hurt u in anyway although i noe its unavoidable..i hav neva regretted knowing u...u r god's gift darling and i appreciate dat gift very much...i'll b a good buddy,boyfriend,husband to u....datz my promise to u....no one can ever separate us....i love u baby....muacks....muacks....

To the world you may be one person, but to me you are the world

here's a video for u...hope u like it.....:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOd8grq9FFI

2006-10-11T18:40:00.000+08:00

i did not attend school today bcoz i woke up late....so i did my revision at home instead..it was a boring day at home...did nothing much really...and i waited for BABY to finish work too...neva did i expect dat u will eventually forget all about me after finishing work....u told me urself dat u wil give me a miss kol after u r done wit ur work since u had to stay back even further for an extra class....and i waited for u patiently....but in the end,still no msg or miss kol from you...i even dozed off waiting for u....u didnt even bother to msg me when u r in the bus...it was after i gave u a miss kol that u msg me back....when i called,u told me in a rush u forgot to call me....and also u didnt want me to get mad since u rushed to get me those plasters which i wanted right after work....i mean what kind of reason is dat?...datz sumting unacceptable...i was the one who told u to get those plasters for me...so even if u still call me at dat point of time,i would not get mad but u did not....i was very hurt with wat u did to me....i didnt expect dat frm u....this is da 2nd time dat u r doing tiz to me...no one wil forget their loved ones even when they r in a rush....to add on your mistakes,u did not even tell me dat u r accompanying ur fren to buy her stuff.....and the reason u gave me?...u said dat since we r quarreling on the fone,u didnt hav the chance to tell me...datz another lame reason.....how would u feel if i did all these to u?...im very upset wit ur attittude for today...its lyke u dun even care abt me anymore...u r only working for a few days and all this r already happening..i juz cant believe it....u really let me down....i waited for u da whole day and tiz is wat i get in the end...its lyke im ur dog..when u need me,u would call me,msg me...but when u dun need me,u will juz ignore me lyke dat...why r u doing this to me dear??...dont u love me anymore??....im trying my best to understand u but plz dont do tiz to me..it's very hurting...watever it is,i've forgiven u....juz dat im still very hurt and too angry to talk to u.........anyway take care and hope ur hand is ok....i still love u BABY....muacks....

2006-10-10T19:26:00.000+08:00

just woke up...im having a headache now....going to do some revision later wile waiting for BABY to come home from work...i miss u so much...but u r very different today..i dunno why but i juz felt dat way...mayb u r very busy and had little time for me datz why....but datz ok..i wun make a big fuss over it....i need to understand ur situation now...i'll try to adapt to it k cause u r going for da attachment for the next 2months....i hope during tiz point of time,we'll stick together juz lyke we used to....neva b apart frm each other....and i dun want any changes in u....or history to repeat itself...u should noe wat i mean....anyway come home soon k...and take care when u r going home....i'll b waiting for ur call.......love u and miz u lots......muacks....muacks.........

2006-10-09T10:09:00.000+08:00

i've been busy for the past 3days which is why i didnt hav the time to update my blog.....so here's wat happened....on Saturday my family and i went to Geylang to get our stuff for Hari Raya...thankfully i got all the tings dat i wanted...it was stuffy in there and i was drenched in sweat....we reached home ard 1plus in the morning tanx to the full parking lot where all of us waited lyke nearly an hour juz for a parking space...before going to Geylang,my family actually went over to my grandma's house first since my grandparents said they wanted to come along...anyway...BABY stayed up the whole night just to call me...dat was so swit of u.....thanks sayang..i appreciate dat...

then yesterday.....i went over to my aunty's house at CCK....my grandparents was there too....had a fun time there since i've not seen my 2 little cousins in a while.....after all my extended family members break their fast,all of us went to watch the cd dat my aunt bought the other day....the show wasnt dat good anyway....mummy,my cousin and i went home after the show ended.......BABY also went out with her family.....to buy shoe for Hari Raya..and tiz time it was me who waited to her....till 10plus....i was already sleepy at dat point of time...but luckily she called me at the right time..managed to talk for a wile before i doze off...im sorry sayang for leaving you juz lyke dat..im very tired and didnt get enuf sleep....i miss u lots actually...muacks

and Today,im having a stomachache.....didnt go to school.......there's no one to keep me company right now since BABY has gone for attachment and she's going to b busy for the next couple of months....i noe dat the time dat we spend is going to b lesser this time...but dats ok....i understand the situation dat we r in and we are going to get thru tiz together....no more quarrelling k...anyway...im going to meet her later...at the hospital....i hope i can go out..i'll c how's my condition first...if it gets worse,maybe i wun go out.....but i really want to meet BABY badly...im missing her so much...hav fun working BABY....i love u so much...cant wait to talk to u again.....lots of hugs and kisses from me to you....muacks...muacks...i'll neva forget you no matter where i am......

2006-10-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

im supposed to meet BABY today but i cant cause im gt something to attend to at home...im so sorry sayang....i'll spend time wit u tomoro k...and dat's a promise...i noe u must b upset wit me but i didnt mean any of it at all....anyway HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY SAYANG!!!!!!....im so happy dat we made this tiz far though we've been through lots of ups and doens....i wish for a everlasting relationship wit u dear...till death do us apart.....i love u so much and u r always in my thoughts....and to add on to my happiness...i got ur LETTERS!!!!....ur baby pic is so cute!!!....haha....and those letters r very touching.....and tanx for the lovely stickers too...i lyke it.....dont forget to call me at night k...abt our date today...im so sorry...hope u forgive me.....

baby...im so in love wit you...tanx for being there wit me....i appreciate ur presence....it means alot to me...dont u leave me...i'll promise u dat i'll give u all of my love and make u da happiest girl alive....im glad dat we r together right now....i'll try to change for ur sake and b there for u when u need me....i'll neva stop loving u since 6th July 2006.....da day when i've finally found my true love and dat person is YOU.....i'll neva forget u and the love dat u've been giving me all this wile...it is very special to day...today i dedicate this song to you....for my one and only love,Ismanina Ibrahim...i love u darling....muacks...muacks...missing u badly right now.....

this is for you honey.....muacks.....:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uezK6WYduXE

2006-10-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

didnt do much today....juz spend my day sleeping after making it up to baby....we had a fight yet again today all bcoz she didnt called me in the morning..i knew dat she needed the rest but she promised to spend her time wit me...i even hurt her feelings in da end...im sorry for being rude and also for my attitude...forgive me sayang....i didnt mean it....i'll always love u no matter wat....right now as im writing tiz blog,im talking on da fone wit you....im so happy....finally we got to spend time again together.....it juz feels good hearing ur voice.....and tanx for complementing on my voice....i didnt know it was nice to hear actually...who noes i gt a hidden talent for singing??...haha...juz kidding.....anyway after blogging,mayb im off to revise some of my work.....i miss u so much sayang...dont forget to tag me k....tanx for spending ur time wit me...i cant hardly wait for tomoro....its going to b a special one...im so happy dat we make it tiz far....till then baby....lots of hugs and kisses from bunny to barney....muacks...muacks......

1more day to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!...yey2!!!!!!

2006-10-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

just woke up...im still sleepy now....but i gt to drag myself out of bed since i gt sum work dat needs to b done later...wish i could remain in bed...i dunno why im so tired these days...perhaps bcoz of my school's schedule which i find very hectic...my body juz cant accept it....and im always sick....i must do sumting abt it fast or i'll end up suffering.....anyway im sorry abt my attitude baby...i noe dat u r having dat girls thing now but i've failed to understand ur feelings...u ended up feeling jealous when i told wat happened between me and my girl pals in school...i wun do it again ok baby...i should hav understand u instead of getting angry all the time....i really hope to get rid of dat ugly temper of mine fast....i really3 miss u so much...wish u r here wit me right now...i'll try to make time for our anniversary tiz Friday....i plan to skip school tiz friday but i cant cause there r a couple of major lessons dat i need to attend...sorry dear...but dun worry...i'll do anyting juz for u....i love u so much honey...till death do us apart....Fiq and Nina will always b one...muacks...muacks....

2more days to our 3rd month anniversary

2006-10-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

had a fight wit BABY today...im so sorry sayang....it wasnt wat i wanted...didnt mean to hurt u in any way...im let my anger get the better of me...u even got scolded by me on the fone in the presence of my frens....i got mad just because u didnt call me in school just now...i didnt understand dat u need the rest after accompanying me on the fone when im on my way to school...dat was so selfish of me...shouldnt hav done dat....forgive me sayang....plz dont b upset...as for the separation,i didnt mean it...i said dat in a moment of anger..u noe dat i'll never leave you...i love u so much....i want us to be together forver....and i dont want anyting lyke tiz to happen again...i cant bear to see us quarrelling few days before our anniversary each month...it broke my heart seeing getting hurt by me..the one whom u love so much....hav faith in me dear..i'll make tings work between us....and i wun ever leave you again...datz my promise to u.....sorry dat i didnt spend much time wit u on the fone juz now..i tink im falling sick soon...but i'll try to stay healthy...juz for u....cause im your HERO!!!..haha..anyway im missing you so badly dear....cant wait to talk to u again....and also,u must get well soon....and plz hav some trust in me....dun ever make me feel insecure....im going to sleep now..dun forget to msg me ok....love u so much baby....muacks...muacks....i'll always be there for you...sorry about my attitude juz now...

3more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!

2006-10-02T17:38:00.000+08:00

just came back frm sch...it was a tiring day for me....to make tings worst,im feeling so restless and having a headache now....going to catch a nap later....and mayb study for a wile later....anyway...im sorry that i cancel our date yet again baby....im just too tired to go out with you....hope u understand my situation...its not dat i didnt want to go out wit you...it wasnt even intentional at all...i'll make it up to u someday....plz dont b upset over tiz...i want u to smile always...im glad to hear dat u r very happy after seeing my blog....tiz is something from me to you....i love u so much sayang...hope u call me soon...im missing you so badly....once again,im sorry about today...i knew dat u wanted to meet me so badly...sorry k....take care...and hav a safe journey home.....muacks...muacks.....

4more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!

2006-10-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

hey there....here's my first blog entry so here its goes.....didnt really do much today....i was revising my work da whole day....its pretty boring since mummy didnt let me use da pc or the phone....dat really suckz....to make things worst,i miss BABY so much...wish i could talk to u soon dear....i miss ur voice too...anyway hope u r enjoying urself out there with ur family....and come home soon.....im really looking forward to our date tomoro....so sweet of u to wait for me to end sch...i love u so much....and furthermore,im so happy dat we didnt quarrel today.....hmm...i didnt hav much to add here really...and i dun tink i can blog dat often since im going to b very bz....i hope u understand me sayang why we r not going to spend so much time together lyke we used to....plz b patient with me.....ok ppl.got to go now....i'll update more abt myself soon......take care and hav a nice day......call me soon sayang.....im so in love wit u....muacks...muacks...muacks......

5more days to our 3rd month anniversary!!!!!!!....