im damn tired today....and sch's giving a major headache....my workload is getting more and more each day and i find it extremely hard to meet the deadlines...in the end,im the one who's feeling stress...on top of dat,i still hav to juggle my studies and my love life which im thankful that it's going ok right now...
finally,i found a job but damn,the working hours are long....since im currently schooling right now,i will start work on at 6 and will end my shift ard 1130pm...i guess i will be in for a hard time...im sick and tired of not having enuf cash all the time and i cant always depend on my parents for money...its time for me to earn my own money....so i can buy whatever i've been wanting to buy all this while....BABY is not aware of this yet..but im sure she will not be happy since im going to be home late and we cant talk as usual at 10...i might be so sleepy when i reach home that mayb we dun even hav the time to talk even though u r willing to wait for me...the only time we will get to talk is before both of us r off to sch in the morning...also,we r going to be spending lesser time with each other since both of us r busy with our own lives...whatever it is,im still going to make time for the both of us to be together....
about our love life,things r turning bad each day but im grateful that we r ok today...i dunno why we r fighting all the time and i cant accept whatever that u hav to say...im so sorry dear...sometimes i find it hard to communicate with u and i still cant find the reason to dat till now..u should know that i didnt mean abt the breakup...i cant live without u even for a day...i need u in my life always...i want u to noe dat i still love u baby...so much....i've never love a girl this much till the day u came into my life...i miss u so much right now...so far for today,we've only exchanged a few msgs...i just hav to adapt to it....there r many challenges in a love life but if we truly love each other,both of us will overcome it...i hope both of us can do this...muacks....
cant wait to call you baby....i've been waiting for you the whole day and im dying to hear ur voice...
you are a blessing from Heaven baby....thanks for being part of my Life...muacks....
its damn bored staying at home the whole day...i did not go to sch coz i woke up late when actually earlier on,BABY already called lots of times to wake me up....anyway thanks dear for waking me up...i miss u...muacks...
in the afternoon,i followed my mum to meet my grandma at Clementi...i shouldnt hav gone there...in the end,i got a headache for nothing....i didnt want to go in the first place coz its raining heavily and sleeping would be a much better choice but since mummy got no company,i juz decided to tag along....what a waste of time...there r lots of ppl especially students...and its kinda hard to walk ard when its raining...my jeans ended up getting soaked...a mental note to myself...never go out when its raining heavily....
things r not right at times for BABY and me...i just dont know what's so wrong with the both of us..its like we r upset with each other or sumting...and we couldnt accept each other's words...mayb that's because we r missing each other so much like what BABY mentioned just now over the phone...we r currently very busy with our school life that we r spending lesser time wit each other.....perhaps we should to be more tolerant of each other...BABY's better at this since im always losing my temper most of the time...sorry about k....i just cant control it at times...but whatever it is ,i will always love u...muacks...
BABY and i r meeting tomoro...we have a date at the library...i've decided to offer her my help for any of her upcoming test/exam since she said she cant study/revise alone...i'll be more than glad to help...i wanna her to do well for her graduating year....i want u to be proud of yourself for all the hard work and effort dat u r going to put in...dont u ever look down on urself..i will always b there to give u my support and encouragement....remember that...love u and miss u lots honey...muacks
tonight will be a very special night for the both of us...u should know what i mean honey..:)
Little Boy and Little Girl.Mr Nugget and Miss Nugget.
im in school right now...since i got nothing much to do,might as well i update my blog to pass time...i've been very busy ever since im back in school...luckily for me,i didnt miss out much cause i've been doing assignments at home if i decided to skip school or watsover and i'll juz send everything to my lecturers thru mail...but right now,i cant afford to skip school anymore cause i really got lots of things to do....and due to tiz,im spending lesser time time with BABY...i hope u understand dear why im either tired or sleepy most of the time...we must try to understand each other since both of us r busy with our schools....btw im missing u right now..i wanted to msg u but decided not to disturb u...i didnt want u to get distracted...and forget to eat k...datz very important...muacks....
anyway my bro told me dat Krish is doing fine right now which a sign of relief for everyone...he is the center of attention in the Mraz family not forgetting his 2 older brothers...he is so adorable juz like his father...with the boys/guys dominating the Mraz family,a baby girl will even be more special...i hope my nephews will grow up to be useful someday...speaking of my nephews,i miss my adorable son so much...Rey will be 3 tiz coming June...he's so big already...i just cant believe it..my ex told me that he's going to pre-school soon....wat a cutie pie...cant wait to meet him again...i wanna him to noe that his daddy here loves him so much and will never ever forget him...all i want him is to acknowledge me as his dad when he's older as he's much more closer to his step-dad since he's living with him and my ex....the thought of him calling another man 'daddy' is unbearable...i get jealous most of the time but its no point since i was the one who refuse to take care of him...watever it is,daddy miss u Rey....hope u r missing me too...
as for BABY and me,we r doing fine each day....there r lesser misunderstanding and all dat...im glad for dat....being with her for 6mths is wonderful...i love her to bits and pieces....u r my life dear...muacks...tanx for being my everything...without u,i would be totally lost in life...i can bear to lose everyting in this world but not u....once u r gone,my life is meaningless....dont u ever doubt my love for u....i will always love u and there's no more room for any1 else in my heart...im all yours....since 6th July 2006...the day dat that i will never forget....love u and miss u so much baby...muacks muacks....
today everything was ok as usual....
its our 6months anniversary...didnt hav much to celebrate though...im sorry about what happened earlier on...it wasnt something which i wanted at all....
i miss you lots honey....hope u will call me after this...muacks...
i didnt hav the mood to blog actually...i just dont feel well after the trip to Sentosa with my family and relatives just now....im going to get a cold soon...shouldnt hav went in the 1st place...
i think datz about it...my mind is kinda blank right now..mayb i'll blog more tomoro..till then...peace...
im so bored today....im not interested in school which is why i've not been to sch these few days..and there r problems at home too...just feel lyke running away from home but i noe its no use..i will be at a disadvantage in the end...so better not be foolish to do such a thing...also im sick and tired of having shortage of money all the time...i had no luck in finding a job or watsoever...wat a life im having right now...
the first day of the New Year wasnt good either...i juz dun understand what's happening to me and my life...is it me or the ppl surrounding me?...i tried to be nice but i still got treated badly in the end...when im bad,ppl will critcise me for doing this and that...i dont noe what is it that those people want from me...i noe i may be bad at times but doesnt mean i cant change...im trying my best to change especially on my attitude but it will take me awhile to do it...plz understand...im sick and yet im getting this treatment..im not asking ppl to hav pity on me or watsoever,i dun need dat..i just want them to understand what im going thru just like wat i did when they r going thru a rough time...i noe i can depend on ppl too much...i can be independent in certain areas...but when it involves feelings and all that,i need BABY by my need...she's the one who can console me and make me forget all abt my problems...thanks dear...i dont know wat to do without u...although at times i've hurt u,u r very patient wit me and even try to make me happy....not make girls can do it...im very proud to hav u as my girl....
3 more days to our 6mth anniversary dear...although i've mention the word separation lots of times,i didnt mean it at all..i only said dat in a moment of anger...truth is im still very much in love with you...i cant live without u dear...i need u in my life...dun u ever leave me...i will neva find another girl like u...u may not be rich,pretty or even smart,but ur heart is something which many will not hav...the love u hav given me,i felt so blessed being wit you...day and night,i pray dat we will always be together...i hope my presence in ur life has the greatest impact among all...i love u so much honey...muacks muacks...im missing u lots here....im so happy that u r part of my life..muacks....
One man all by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world.
the eldest boy,Sly Jeriel Razif Mraz
the middle boy,Chad Michael Syarriz Mraz
here are 3 photos of my newborn nephew,Krish Sebastian Aqim Mraz...the time of his arrival was 1.27pm...he wasnt due till next week actually...looks like he cant wait any longer and i tink dat is a perfect timing...anyway i arrived there only 30mins after his birth and i couldnt take lots of pictures like what BABY wanted me to do since Krish was having difficulties in breathing and was taken away by the doctor to be place under obversation...but i hope u r happy wit these pictures...im proud being uncle for the thrid time...haha...the whole Mraz family were delighted with his birth especially his parents and older siblings....
no one is at home right now except for me and my cousin....gosh,im so bored...i cant find anything to do except eating,sleeping,watching tv,computer etc..so i decided to blog today...usually im lazy to do so...i didnt want to follow my mum to my aunty's house cause its even more boring there...i hav to entertain my little cousins and there's nothing much i can do...besides,my mum's there cause she's helping my aunt and grandma to prepare for tomoro's Hari Raya Haji....anyway im damn hungry right now...mayb i'll whip sumthing up later after blogging...
moments ago,i was on the fone wit BABY...i miss her so much...that short conversation wasnt enuf..wish i could to her longer but she needs to do some household chores first...especially for tomoro...i wanna spend the whole night wit u honey....u r mine alone...i hope there will be no misunderstanding between us for today...up till now,we r doing good...love u dearly baby...muacks...i cant wait for u to read my blog later....give me lots of tags k....
i hate tomoro...cause its Hari Raya Haji and i've to go to my grandparents place....its going to be so boring and i've to wear those stuffy clothes....why cant i juz wear those casual clothes??..guys will usually do dat unlike for girls who will be wearing those traditional clothings on festives like tiz....watever...I JUST HATE THIS!!!!
anyway tomoro is also the New Year's Eve and im going out wit BABY at night...im sure i will enjoy myself tomoro night...i cant sleep thinking abt tiz...haha...i noe its nonsense but i noe its going to a special night..i wanna do that "thing" wit you...haha...u should noe wat it is...
1 more week to our 6mths anniversary honey!!....i got a surprise for u....hope u will like it....
Taufiq Cleophas Matthew Mraz
20yrs old
National University of Singapore
9th November 1986
attached to Ismanina Ibrahim since 6th July 2006
littlebeachboy_fiq@hotmail.com
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